Saturday... was a busy day.. coz was my mum's birthday! haha.. I made her a dinner, a very simple one.. Didn't bought her any present coz I am 'broke' for this month.. Although is just starting of the month, why I am 'broke'? It is because holidays I don't get any pocket money... Sigh..
COme back to my mum's birthday.. What I made her? Oh.. Quite interesting.. I made a cake.. It didn't turn out good.. I am dissapointed instead.. Then, baked her pizza.. 1st time making pizza, quite successful.. delicious..haha.. Then, potato salad and cabbage salad made by my sisters.. Delicious too.. Desert was suppose to be the cake.. sigh.. taste not good.. luckily there was ice-cream..hehe.
It was a busy saturday coz last minute planning.. went to 1 Utama to shop for those ingredients and came home wet.. Got quite angry with my sis who went with me, coz I blamed her for making me wet... Bad me.. Regreted for shouting at her.. Sorry sis...
Came back with all these groceries and started to cook and prepare all the food.. A happy dinner indeed.. Hope my mum will like it! Happy Birthday, dear Mummy!!!! :p
L@ter at nite, went online.. pretty tired.. tot just going to check my mail.. Saw him online.. Tot for very long time, thinking whether to say a hi to him.. Remember what I wrote last time, saying that he will put 'busy' or 'away' right after I online? That's the reason kept me thinking...Finished checking my mail.. He's still online.. so, made up my decision to say a hi.. Yes! He did reply.. We chat for a very very short while and he just appeared offline... sigh.. anyway, happy enough..haha.. :p
Oh.. My beautiful Sund@y ... What happen then? Today.. I went to church.. I learnt a lot from what the pastor had preeched in the service.. Very interesting.. I learnt that GOD has all the provision for us.. We just have to be patient.. I am just an impatient person.. Pastor preeched that we not to be desparate coz desparate make us look 'ugly'..haha.. 'ugly' in the sense of doing the wrong thing and showing all our weaknesses to the person we like.. True.. Agree.. Maybe, I am.. but not yet showing any of my weakness to the person I like.. But, I learnt not to.. by being patient.. And GOD has provided everything I need and I'll be needing in the future..
Then, later in the nite.. Guess who called me? haha.. My UK friend.. She tried calling me around 5pm.. but I was too late to pick up my handphone. I missed her call.. I was wondering the number belongs to who, but 1 thg I am sure, it's a UK call.. Later, she called back at around 7pm +, It's her.. So so happy.. We chatted for so so long, nearly for 1 hr +.. in between, there's was somethg wrong with the line, but she called back each time the line got 'disconnected'.. So happy..
Ok.. That's my days.. How about yours? Hope those who reading this, will have a happy day too.. Each day is fill with hope.. Is just depends on how u are going to handle a situation and see a situation.. If u see a bad situation as 'bad', it is bad.. But, if you see a bad situation as 'good', it will be good and u are in control of it.. This is the lesson which I have learnt and will continue to learn..
Ok.. Hope that each day for me and you is a good day!! :)
Monday, November 08, 2004
Sunday, November 07, 2004
My GrandMa..
My grandma.. I miss her a lot..
My grandma is a very nice person.. I still remember those days which I stayed with her.. Oh.. those was the days.. It was wonderful.. I still remember I went to stayed with my aunt when I was standard 2, of course my grandma was there too.. U might wonder why I don't stay with my family? I do also wonder why I stayed with my aunt then? Maybe at that time, I was the only one schooling and my aunt has a car, she fetched me to school every morning.. haha.. Don't know why I am just a girl can suit myself in new environment very fast.. and quite independent..So, I enjoyed my days in my aunt house..
Oh ya.. about my grandma.. She passed away when I was standard 4.. And I still remember she can't make it to shift to new house which my aunt has bought.. And I still remember the week when she passed away, was just 1 week before my birthday.. I was so so sad.. I can say I witnessed her death.. She was so so sicked.. and she was sent home by ambulance and she passed away while she was transfered from the ambulance to the house, and she was not put for oksigen.. Perhaps, was that reason, she could not breath and got very difficult.. Later, she was announced to be dead... I was so so shocked and couldn't believe it.. I was so sad and cried.. She was brought back to my mum's hometown coz all my uncle was there.. The funeral was done there but we did have a small one in KL coz my grandma has some church friends..
Ya.. I always accompanied my grandma to church.. I will always sit beside her with the Bible and I was happily flipping to the pages as the pastor preeches.. I miss those days..
Besides that, I still remember the days I had school holiday, I'll stay at my aunt house.. My grandma will have to cook for lunch.. I still remember her steamfish with a lot of sesame oil.. Very nice! I still remember I said to her to make her happy I'll buy her ' KAI XING GUO', a kind of nut.. and told if she eat it, she'll be happy.. She did believe it - I think..
Further to that, I still remember we use to sit taxi to my mum place and later in the evening, my aunt will come and pick us up.. actually my aunt place is just near by my mum's place.. by due to her old age, we took cab.. I still remember is was so cheap to get a cab those days.. It only cost RM1.50 those days..
I still remember also I always wake up early in Saturday morning and accompanied my grandma to visit the clinic in KL.. My aunt will fetch us there and I will go with my grandma.. I'll wait for her in the clinic, collect the medicine for her and go home together...
I still remember, I too always accompanied her in the evening every saturday sometimes morning to visit to the 'Tabib Cina' for 'akupuntur'.. I'll wait till she finished and sometimes peep in to see how she is doing..
U know.. she really wanted to go to the new house.. She prepared a new clothes and wash her hair (those days, my grandma seldom wash hair coz she is old and quite troublesome).. I boiled the hot water for her to wash her hair everytime too.. Now, I don;t have such opportunity...I miss her a lot.. Sometimes when I am very very sad, I'll think of her.. When my mum scolded me badly, I'll console myself and think back that my grandma never scolded me before no matter how naughty I am..
I really miss her.. Why suddenly I put this in my blog? It is due to what I heard and seen from my friends.. They have grandma.. But each time, I heard from them is complaint of how troublesome was their grandma..
That time, I wish I could have my grandma.. I am sure I'll have a lot of fun with her.. however, she is no longer here..
I know, she is now in heaven.. I know that GOD has prepared a good place for her with no sickness and no worries.. I know GOD will sure take care of her.. I just miss her..
My grandma is a very nice person.. I still remember those days which I stayed with her.. Oh.. those was the days.. It was wonderful.. I still remember I went to stayed with my aunt when I was standard 2, of course my grandma was there too.. U might wonder why I don't stay with my family? I do also wonder why I stayed with my aunt then? Maybe at that time, I was the only one schooling and my aunt has a car, she fetched me to school every morning.. haha.. Don't know why I am just a girl can suit myself in new environment very fast.. and quite independent..So, I enjoyed my days in my aunt house..
Oh ya.. about my grandma.. She passed away when I was standard 4.. And I still remember she can't make it to shift to new house which my aunt has bought.. And I still remember the week when she passed away, was just 1 week before my birthday.. I was so so sad.. I can say I witnessed her death.. She was so so sicked.. and she was sent home by ambulance and she passed away while she was transfered from the ambulance to the house, and she was not put for oksigen.. Perhaps, was that reason, she could not breath and got very difficult.. Later, she was announced to be dead... I was so so shocked and couldn't believe it.. I was so sad and cried.. She was brought back to my mum's hometown coz all my uncle was there.. The funeral was done there but we did have a small one in KL coz my grandma has some church friends..
Ya.. I always accompanied my grandma to church.. I will always sit beside her with the Bible and I was happily flipping to the pages as the pastor preeches.. I miss those days..
Besides that, I still remember the days I had school holiday, I'll stay at my aunt house.. My grandma will have to cook for lunch.. I still remember her steamfish with a lot of sesame oil.. Very nice! I still remember I said to her to make her happy I'll buy her ' KAI XING GUO', a kind of nut.. and told if she eat it, she'll be happy.. She did believe it - I think..
Further to that, I still remember we use to sit taxi to my mum place and later in the evening, my aunt will come and pick us up.. actually my aunt place is just near by my mum's place.. by due to her old age, we took cab.. I still remember is was so cheap to get a cab those days.. It only cost RM1.50 those days..
I still remember also I always wake up early in Saturday morning and accompanied my grandma to visit the clinic in KL.. My aunt will fetch us there and I will go with my grandma.. I'll wait for her in the clinic, collect the medicine for her and go home together...
I still remember, I too always accompanied her in the evening every saturday sometimes morning to visit to the 'Tabib Cina' for 'akupuntur'.. I'll wait till she finished and sometimes peep in to see how she is doing..
U know.. she really wanted to go to the new house.. She prepared a new clothes and wash her hair (those days, my grandma seldom wash hair coz she is old and quite troublesome).. I boiled the hot water for her to wash her hair everytime too.. Now, I don;t have such opportunity...I miss her a lot.. Sometimes when I am very very sad, I'll think of her.. When my mum scolded me badly, I'll console myself and think back that my grandma never scolded me before no matter how naughty I am..
I really miss her.. Why suddenly I put this in my blog? It is due to what I heard and seen from my friends.. They have grandma.. But each time, I heard from them is complaint of how troublesome was their grandma..
That time, I wish I could have my grandma.. I am sure I'll have a lot of fun with her.. however, she is no longer here..
I know, she is now in heaven.. I know that GOD has prepared a good place for her with no sickness and no worries.. I know GOD will sure take care of her.. I just miss her..
Friday, November 05, 2004
Anger -> Disappoinment -> S@d
U know how's the feeling of from anger goes to disappointment and lastly sad feel? It's bad.. If you are at the stage of S@D, you have given up.. But u just filled with sadness.. and don't understand why..
That's what happen to me... Recently I have this kind of feeling.. Why... All because of one person lor..
He went to UK for so so so long and I have never received a single email from him.. I already had emailed him for 2 -3 times, all no reply.. and I did thought that he might be busy.. But.. now I doubt it!
Why so? Recently I got to know his MSN address.. So, sure I have added him lar.. Then, a few times saw him online.. I intended to say a hi.. but at last didn't.. And I realize that he always put his status 'online' and later awhile when I was online, it turn to be 'away' or 'busy'... Got once, he just got online, my MSN alerted me... Then, awhile is 'offline'.. I thought again it might be disruption of connection coz it happen to my other friend.. But, later I realized that there's a 'appeared offline' status in MSN.. and.. I go try to put that status.. true enough I 'appeared to be offline' but I am still online! So so dissapointed... Am I a monster that can't even say a 'hi'?
Oh.. did I show some sign to him that we can't be friends? I know I did wrongly when he asked to take pic together, and I didn't.. does that mean anythg? I don't know.. If so, can I turn back and take that pic? No!
I read and tried a 'test'.. those kind of test which always published on newspaper or magazine.. the test result was I always have accidently rejected people who admire me.. really? so does that mean that's what is happening now?
Sigh.. can't do much.. But, dissapointed lor.. Such a friend he is! :(
That's what happen to me... Recently I have this kind of feeling.. Why... All because of one person lor..
He went to UK for so so so long and I have never received a single email from him.. I already had emailed him for 2 -3 times, all no reply.. and I did thought that he might be busy.. But.. now I doubt it!
Why so? Recently I got to know his MSN address.. So, sure I have added him lar.. Then, a few times saw him online.. I intended to say a hi.. but at last didn't.. And I realize that he always put his status 'online' and later awhile when I was online, it turn to be 'away' or 'busy'... Got once, he just got online, my MSN alerted me... Then, awhile is 'offline'.. I thought again it might be disruption of connection coz it happen to my other friend.. But, later I realized that there's a 'appeared offline' status in MSN.. and.. I go try to put that status.. true enough I 'appeared to be offline' but I am still online! So so dissapointed... Am I a monster that can't even say a 'hi'?
Oh.. did I show some sign to him that we can't be friends? I know I did wrongly when he asked to take pic together, and I didn't.. does that mean anythg? I don't know.. If so, can I turn back and take that pic? No!
I read and tried a 'test'.. those kind of test which always published on newspaper or magazine.. the test result was I always have accidently rejected people who admire me.. really? so does that mean that's what is happening now?
Sigh.. can't do much.. But, dissapointed lor.. Such a friend he is! :(
Saturday, October 23, 2004
So long din write somethg..
Oh..it has been so long since the last time I wrote in here..
Ya.. life getting busier and busier.. non-stop 'burning midnite oil'.. why? coz always lazy and wait till last minute lor.. At last.. at last.. today finally handed up my last 2 assignment.. yipee.. merdeka from assignment.. BUT... masih dijajah oleh FINAL EXAM!!! :(
Days passed by so fast without realizing soon we are approaching to year end liao.. So fast.. Plans set early the year, how many has succeeded? Erm.. So far as I know.. Not any yet.. sad hor..
Oh.. Actually I quite enjoy my semester in a way and don't like it in another way.. It's fun coz I got a good lecturer.. She is a Sporting person, doen't make the class boring although the subject is boring.. And she likes to tell us her 'small stories' happen in her daily life.. Each time, she will fill with joy although the things she mentioned is not so good.. She took things quite positive.. Ya.. should learn from her.. And, She is a christian too.. Haha.. Get to know more interesting story from her, I think GOD has work things through her to let me see.. After all things are not that bad in life...
Erm.. tot a lot for a few days.. although busy for assign but still have blank space for my brain to think nonsence..haha.. Erm.. kind of sure what kind of life I want.. Always said that, but sometime do got lost..
I suddenly realize actually I enjoyed being alone.. Alone in a sense that I don't need any boyfriend at the moment.. Felt that alone is quite nice.. ya. GOT FREEDOM!!! that's what I want most now.. haha.. But if there's someone for me.. maybe I'll just take it.. haha.. is free mar..
haha.. :P
Next, is worries..worried my final exam coming.. haven't started to revise a single thing.. sigh.. Aiming for 1st class.. seems like this aim is hard to achieve.. now is so so so far from me.. even moving further away lor.. Aiming first class not to boast myself but to ensure I could find a job I like.. In my tot, if I do well in my degree course, I might be able to demand for better conditions..haha..
Just finished all my assignment today.. Sigh.. abit worried coz found out from my friend that they answer differently.. sigh.. last minute work is like tat lor.. end up giving the wrong answer.. sure, my lecturer very dissapointed liao.. I my self oso dissapointed already.. Me so bad, lazy.. that's why end up to be like that..
Oh..ya holiday approaching soon.. so nice and good... Must plan well for this time.. If not wasted.. But must start to do my research on my dissertation (thesis).. Long process and tough too.. Wish me all the best lor..
See? that's the consequences for not writing blog for such a long time.. ow felt like dumbing everything in my mind in this blog.. :P
Ya.. life getting busier and busier.. non-stop 'burning midnite oil'.. why? coz always lazy and wait till last minute lor.. At last.. at last.. today finally handed up my last 2 assignment.. yipee.. merdeka from assignment.. BUT... masih dijajah oleh FINAL EXAM!!! :(
Days passed by so fast without realizing soon we are approaching to year end liao.. So fast.. Plans set early the year, how many has succeeded? Erm.. So far as I know.. Not any yet.. sad hor..
Oh.. Actually I quite enjoy my semester in a way and don't like it in another way.. It's fun coz I got a good lecturer.. She is a Sporting person, doen't make the class boring although the subject is boring.. And she likes to tell us her 'small stories' happen in her daily life.. Each time, she will fill with joy although the things she mentioned is not so good.. She took things quite positive.. Ya.. should learn from her.. And, She is a christian too.. Haha.. Get to know more interesting story from her, I think GOD has work things through her to let me see.. After all things are not that bad in life...
Erm.. tot a lot for a few days.. although busy for assign but still have blank space for my brain to think nonsence..haha.. Erm.. kind of sure what kind of life I want.. Always said that, but sometime do got lost..
I suddenly realize actually I enjoyed being alone.. Alone in a sense that I don't need any boyfriend at the moment.. Felt that alone is quite nice.. ya. GOT FREEDOM!!! that's what I want most now.. haha.. But if there's someone for me.. maybe I'll just take it.. haha.. is free mar..
haha.. :P
Next, is worries..worried my final exam coming.. haven't started to revise a single thing.. sigh.. Aiming for 1st class.. seems like this aim is hard to achieve.. now is so so so far from me.. even moving further away lor.. Aiming first class not to boast myself but to ensure I could find a job I like.. In my tot, if I do well in my degree course, I might be able to demand for better conditions..haha..
Just finished all my assignment today.. Sigh.. abit worried coz found out from my friend that they answer differently.. sigh.. last minute work is like tat lor.. end up giving the wrong answer.. sure, my lecturer very dissapointed liao.. I my self oso dissapointed already.. Me so bad, lazy.. that's why end up to be like that..
Oh..ya holiday approaching soon.. so nice and good... Must plan well for this time.. If not wasted.. But must start to do my research on my dissertation (thesis).. Long process and tough too.. Wish me all the best lor..
See? that's the consequences for not writing blog for such a long time.. ow felt like dumbing everything in my mind in this blog.. :P
Friday, October 01, 2004
Rainbows after the rain
Today, I got one very wonderful incidents to write in here.. haha.. Last nite too tired so didn't got the time to write it in here.
Firstly, was yesterday.. Yesterday, it was a rainny day.. As early as 5 am in the morning, the rain started pouring heavily.. It made me so lazy to get up to go college early as I planned..
However, something wonderful happened yesterday. I saw rainbow and not just one rainbow but 2 rainbows at the same time... Oh.. it happened like that.. I was taking bus home at about 7pm from the LRT station.. It was drizzling then and there was sun.. As the sun is setting to the west, I still could see the yellowish, orange bright big sun hanging near the edge of the sky.. It was so bright and beautiful.. It brighthen the whole sky.. It was drizzling then..I was having in my mind.. There is sun, there is rain, will there be rainbow.. ? As I was wondering.. I saw some colourful image on the sky.. Ya.. It's rainbow.. It is the 1st time I could see the whole rainbow across the sky.. It's so so so beautiful.. Seeing the rainbow reminds me of hope.. After all there may be darkness and cloudyness due to the rain, but the rainbow brought us hope.. Beside seeing 1 rainbow, I saw 2 of them.. ya.. really miracle I could see 2 at the same time.. The other one is just very vague next to the other one.. I felt so happy and excited to see the rainbow..
You may think :' Ceh.. Just a rainbow, what so big deal?" Ya, you may be correct. But, for me it is very wonderful as I have being going through some difficulties these days, and trying to struggle to see the bright day.. And the rainbow in the sky not just shown me the bright sky but it's give me hope and strength to continue to work hard and walk forward with what I believe in.. In my religiom, rainbow is a sign of promise and hope given by GOD.. so I am very happy indeed felt gracious for seeing the 2 rainbows! Oh ya.. I am a Christian (in case u wonder..)
Firstly, was yesterday.. Yesterday, it was a rainny day.. As early as 5 am in the morning, the rain started pouring heavily.. It made me so lazy to get up to go college early as I planned..
However, something wonderful happened yesterday. I saw rainbow and not just one rainbow but 2 rainbows at the same time... Oh.. it happened like that.. I was taking bus home at about 7pm from the LRT station.. It was drizzling then and there was sun.. As the sun is setting to the west, I still could see the yellowish, orange bright big sun hanging near the edge of the sky.. It was so bright and beautiful.. It brighthen the whole sky.. It was drizzling then..I was having in my mind.. There is sun, there is rain, will there be rainbow.. ? As I was wondering.. I saw some colourful image on the sky.. Ya.. It's rainbow.. It is the 1st time I could see the whole rainbow across the sky.. It's so so so beautiful.. Seeing the rainbow reminds me of hope.. After all there may be darkness and cloudyness due to the rain, but the rainbow brought us hope.. Beside seeing 1 rainbow, I saw 2 of them.. ya.. really miracle I could see 2 at the same time.. The other one is just very vague next to the other one.. I felt so happy and excited to see the rainbow..
You may think :' Ceh.. Just a rainbow, what so big deal?" Ya, you may be correct. But, for me it is very wonderful as I have being going through some difficulties these days, and trying to struggle to see the bright day.. And the rainbow in the sky not just shown me the bright sky but it's give me hope and strength to continue to work hard and walk forward with what I believe in.. In my religiom, rainbow is a sign of promise and hope given by GOD.. so I am very happy indeed felt gracious for seeing the 2 rainbows! Oh ya.. I am a Christian (in case u wonder..)
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Mid Autumn Festival
Today is the Mid Autumn Festival or in other words the Mooncake Festival. This morning, I was pretty early leaving my house to college. It was about 6 am when I stepped out the house to go to the bus stop. When reached bus stop, I could see the round and beautiful moon right in front of my eyes.. So beautiful... As I was watching the moon, I could see a small small aeroplane flied pass the moon. Wow! It's so beautiful.. I started imagining it to be a spaceship flying next to the moon..
Today, I have a lot of thoughts.. Maybe these thoughts which have occupied my brain as I could not concentrate in class when the lectures were on.. I thought about friends.. Ya.. many so call bad things or incidents have happened to me the past few months.. I was pretty sad and hurt upon those matters. However, I recovered. As I was thinking, I recalled that I was once so happy in college .. Ya.. really.. I have a lot of fun with friends.. and I did told my best friend about those days. I start to think maybe I could now.. Maybe I just need to be more open minded and don't be too narrow minded... And try to be more tolenrate.. Friends maybe just did not know what they are doing is hurting, so I just and must learn to be more and more tolenrate...Maybe by doing so, I would be happier enjoying my final year in college..
Later, I also have thought about him. Oh.. actually I don't think I really miss him that much as I have thought. Maybe is just kind of 'puppy love' or a simple good feelings towards him... Maybe will think of him sometimes but not miss.. Anyway, glad to know him.. Just hope we can be friends and will keep in touch although he is in UK now..
Haha.. these were the things I have thought.. I did thought about continuing with my writing. I like to write and I have tried writing 2 stories.. very short one. Maybe I could continue with it..
Ok.. I have a wonderful Mid Autumn Festival.. It's have given me a real fresh day and fresh future.. I mean in the short view of future as I know what I want..
Thank God for given such a wonderful day!
Today, I have a lot of thoughts.. Maybe these thoughts which have occupied my brain as I could not concentrate in class when the lectures were on.. I thought about friends.. Ya.. many so call bad things or incidents have happened to me the past few months.. I was pretty sad and hurt upon those matters. However, I recovered. As I was thinking, I recalled that I was once so happy in college .. Ya.. really.. I have a lot of fun with friends.. and I did told my best friend about those days. I start to think maybe I could now.. Maybe I just need to be more open minded and don't be too narrow minded... And try to be more tolenrate.. Friends maybe just did not know what they are doing is hurting, so I just and must learn to be more and more tolenrate...Maybe by doing so, I would be happier enjoying my final year in college..
Later, I also have thought about him. Oh.. actually I don't think I really miss him that much as I have thought. Maybe is just kind of 'puppy love' or a simple good feelings towards him... Maybe will think of him sometimes but not miss.. Anyway, glad to know him.. Just hope we can be friends and will keep in touch although he is in UK now..
Haha.. these were the things I have thought.. I did thought about continuing with my writing. I like to write and I have tried writing 2 stories.. very short one. Maybe I could continue with it..
Ok.. I have a wonderful Mid Autumn Festival.. It's have given me a real fresh day and fresh future.. I mean in the short view of future as I know what I want..
Thank God for given such a wonderful day!
Saturday, September 25, 2004
A day in 24th September 2004
24th Sept 2004, Friday. Ya.. It's already friday.. soon it will approach weekend. Should it be wonderful that is Friday? Yes, I should. However, it was not wonderful at all..
This week should say it was so stress for me.. I don't know why? Why there are so many problems pop out at the same time? Firstly, was a shock for my Chinese Cultural Society.. It was replace with a new committee.. and I as a chairperson do not know till saw the booth put up.. Went to speak to the SAO Manager asking for explanation.. Hoping it solve the problem.. can say it's solve but not really.. I am so sad upon what has happened.. But it can't change anything.. What has happened is a reality now..
Secondly, I miss someone.. Thought someone would reply my email after he settled down in UK.. went to check friendster, saw the last log in date in his friendster was yesterday.. but till now, still haven't have a single reply from him.. Same goes to my the other friends who I also sent email to them..
Thridly,is today.. I don't know why it was such a bad day for me..
Started off my day with a bad dream.. Not really a nightmare.. but was a bad bad bad bad dream.. Dream that my youngest sister is no longer on earth.. I cried in the dream.. As I woke up.. felt tears in my eyes.. Oh.. No! what happen.. ????? This can't be true... I was so so terrified.. So scared.. Luckily, nothing happen to my sister..
Later, went to college with my the other sister. Reached college. Alone.. As my sister need to attend class while I need to attend a workshop later at 2pm.. It was only 11 am+ when I was in college. Ok.. Decided to go for a lonely lunch.. The feeling is bad.. Lonely.. sitting at the mamak, ordered my roti canai and teh ais. Ate and felt so lonely as seeing others coming in with companion. Met my lecturer in the mamak. She was alone too.. Found someone to 'accompany' me..haha.. Chat for a while.. And she left... Lonely again.
So, decided to head to library to study.. As I entered the library, started searching for Student ID.. Oh no.. It's not in my bag, neither in my files, or wallet... Where has it gone? without the ID, I can't access to the library neither the college campus.. I was so so desperate.. Took my bag and went to the reading hall next door as it need no ID to access.. Sat at the reading hall, took out all my things in the bag, start searching.. Don't have.. Don't have! Where? If I can't find it again, it would be the 2nd time I lost my ID.. I don't want it to happen again.. So worried..
Oh.. started to sms my friend if she saw my ID elsewhere.. No reply.. I sat there starring at the books, mind wandering off.. What to do next.. ??? First time really so lost because of loosing an ID.. Last time, it happened and I manage to handle it.. Why? this time seems so lost..So i start to message my friend, Zi Yi.. at that time no one came into my mind except her.. She is not in the same college.. But I don't know why just started to message her.. As I typing my sms.. suddenly I type 'die lar..' I don't know why, tears just started rolling in my eyes.. I just suddenly can't hold on and start crying by putting my head down facing the table.. The dream of my sister no longer on earth appeared in my mind.. I cried softly as I did not want to attract any attention from others.. I was so so worried and started to pray in my little voice.. I told GOD, " I need help. Please comfort me.. And protect my sister.. If she will have anything bad happening to her, please DO NOT LET IT happen to her and let the bad event happen on me.. Please don't let anythign happen to all my family members: my mum, dad,both sisters.. Let the worst thing happen on me.. I can't afford to loose any of them.." And it was just about 30 seconds to a minute.. I stopped crying, wiped off the tears.. I was a bit calm and felt comforted after the prayer.. Thank GOD.. HE did comfort me..And send off the msg to my friend, Zi Yi.. I was so lost.. Zi Yi msg me back and comforted me and told me if necessary go replace one as soon as possible.. After reading the message I was calmed and replied her sms.. Thank to her for always being by my side as I need someone to talk to.. THANK GOD FOR PUTTING HER AS MY FRIEND!
Later, sat in the reading room, started doing some exercises.. Soon, it's approaching 2pm.. I packed and left for college.. Approaching the guard house at the campus, saw no guard.. So just walked in.. Later, I just went to the office to update my old ID (last time I lost one, replace new one and later found the old one, so I kept it).. Luckily, everything is fine..
Attended the workshop.. Found out about my dissertaion procedures.. Surprisingly, I need to submit a topic by 8th October.. Now, gotta start to think about it and do research on it already..
Today, my sky is so so blue.. Cloudy.. As it would rain heavily soon.. Just don't know when as it's still holding the rain..
Sigh.. blue blue blue..
Realy thank GOD...
This week should say it was so stress for me.. I don't know why? Why there are so many problems pop out at the same time? Firstly, was a shock for my Chinese Cultural Society.. It was replace with a new committee.. and I as a chairperson do not know till saw the booth put up.. Went to speak to the SAO Manager asking for explanation.. Hoping it solve the problem.. can say it's solve but not really.. I am so sad upon what has happened.. But it can't change anything.. What has happened is a reality now..
Secondly, I miss someone.. Thought someone would reply my email after he settled down in UK.. went to check friendster, saw the last log in date in his friendster was yesterday.. but till now, still haven't have a single reply from him.. Same goes to my the other friends who I also sent email to them..
Thridly,is today.. I don't know why it was such a bad day for me..
Started off my day with a bad dream.. Not really a nightmare.. but was a bad bad bad bad dream.. Dream that my youngest sister is no longer on earth.. I cried in the dream.. As I woke up.. felt tears in my eyes.. Oh.. No! what happen.. ????? This can't be true... I was so so terrified.. So scared.. Luckily, nothing happen to my sister..
Later, went to college with my the other sister. Reached college. Alone.. As my sister need to attend class while I need to attend a workshop later at 2pm.. It was only 11 am+ when I was in college. Ok.. Decided to go for a lonely lunch.. The feeling is bad.. Lonely.. sitting at the mamak, ordered my roti canai and teh ais. Ate and felt so lonely as seeing others coming in with companion. Met my lecturer in the mamak. She was alone too.. Found someone to 'accompany' me..haha.. Chat for a while.. And she left... Lonely again.
So, decided to head to library to study.. As I entered the library, started searching for Student ID.. Oh no.. It's not in my bag, neither in my files, or wallet... Where has it gone? without the ID, I can't access to the library neither the college campus.. I was so so desperate.. Took my bag and went to the reading hall next door as it need no ID to access.. Sat at the reading hall, took out all my things in the bag, start searching.. Don't have.. Don't have! Where? If I can't find it again, it would be the 2nd time I lost my ID.. I don't want it to happen again.. So worried..
Oh.. started to sms my friend if she saw my ID elsewhere.. No reply.. I sat there starring at the books, mind wandering off.. What to do next.. ??? First time really so lost because of loosing an ID.. Last time, it happened and I manage to handle it.. Why? this time seems so lost..So i start to message my friend, Zi Yi.. at that time no one came into my mind except her.. She is not in the same college.. But I don't know why just started to message her.. As I typing my sms.. suddenly I type 'die lar..' I don't know why, tears just started rolling in my eyes.. I just suddenly can't hold on and start crying by putting my head down facing the table.. The dream of my sister no longer on earth appeared in my mind.. I cried softly as I did not want to attract any attention from others.. I was so so worried and started to pray in my little voice.. I told GOD, " I need help. Please comfort me.. And protect my sister.. If she will have anything bad happening to her, please DO NOT LET IT happen to her and let the bad event happen on me.. Please don't let anythign happen to all my family members: my mum, dad,both sisters.. Let the worst thing happen on me.. I can't afford to loose any of them.." And it was just about 30 seconds to a minute.. I stopped crying, wiped off the tears.. I was a bit calm and felt comforted after the prayer.. Thank GOD.. HE did comfort me..And send off the msg to my friend, Zi Yi.. I was so lost.. Zi Yi msg me back and comforted me and told me if necessary go replace one as soon as possible.. After reading the message I was calmed and replied her sms.. Thank to her for always being by my side as I need someone to talk to.. THANK GOD FOR PUTTING HER AS MY FRIEND!
Later, sat in the reading room, started doing some exercises.. Soon, it's approaching 2pm.. I packed and left for college.. Approaching the guard house at the campus, saw no guard.. So just walked in.. Later, I just went to the office to update my old ID (last time I lost one, replace new one and later found the old one, so I kept it).. Luckily, everything is fine..
Attended the workshop.. Found out about my dissertaion procedures.. Surprisingly, I need to submit a topic by 8th October.. Now, gotta start to think about it and do research on it already..
Today, my sky is so so blue.. Cloudy.. As it would rain heavily soon.. Just don't know when as it's still holding the rain..
Sigh.. blue blue blue..
Realy thank GOD...
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Attended a Talk today..
Today, I attended to a talk in my college organized by our counselling centre. It was a talk about "how to write a good resume and get a good job?" Interesting.. Anyway, I will soon need that.. A year to go for graduation.. Seems to be long but yet to be short too..
This talk was quite interesting as the counsellor manage to get a speaker for Zullign Pharma. She was a HR Director.. She did a good job telling us what an employer expect from our cover letter and resume when we write in to apply for jobs. Since she is the Human Resource Director, she knows the best and the most..
She was a sporting person. She gave an interesting talk and even gave us copy of a good resume and a 'not so good' resume which were a 'real' resume sent in by applicants.. She really had taught us many things by telling us what an employer will expect from the applicants. She is a real great speaker. Although the talk is short,I benefit a lot and no regrets for attending it.
Besides that, she also showed statistic about the minimum salary which a fresh graduate would expect to get when applying the job.. Tell you, I could get a minumum salary of RM1,800..haha.. Don't know if I could..
Then she did told us tip when attending an interview. As a girl , must always wear skirt, dark colour skirt and long sleeve collar blouse. Must be very formal. Must put make up..haha..
Erm.. overall it was a good talk and I think the speaker really is a wonderful person as she has been so busy with her daily routine work, yet she spent her time preparing such detailed and wonderful presentation by doing research for us..
If anyone want to know more about the resume or cover letter, I think I could explain abit..haha.. trying to be expert liao.. haha..
This talk was quite interesting as the counsellor manage to get a speaker for Zullign Pharma. She was a HR Director.. She did a good job telling us what an employer expect from our cover letter and resume when we write in to apply for jobs. Since she is the Human Resource Director, she knows the best and the most..
She was a sporting person. She gave an interesting talk and even gave us copy of a good resume and a 'not so good' resume which were a 'real' resume sent in by applicants.. She really had taught us many things by telling us what an employer will expect from the applicants. She is a real great speaker. Although the talk is short,I benefit a lot and no regrets for attending it.
Besides that, she also showed statistic about the minimum salary which a fresh graduate would expect to get when applying the job.. Tell you, I could get a minumum salary of RM1,800..haha.. Don't know if I could..
Then she did told us tip when attending an interview. As a girl , must always wear skirt, dark colour skirt and long sleeve collar blouse. Must be very formal. Must put make up..haha..
Erm.. overall it was a good talk and I think the speaker really is a wonderful person as she has been so busy with her daily routine work, yet she spent her time preparing such detailed and wonderful presentation by doing research for us..
If anyone want to know more about the resume or cover letter, I think I could explain abit..haha.. trying to be expert liao.. haha..
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
A day of...
A day of...
A day of a friend who has left for UK..
This day started to be a bit rush.. hehe.. it is all due to the late nite home back from airport can say this morning.. Reached home about 1 am.. pretty late rite?
Slept.. And suppose to wake up at 7 a.m. to get ready to go class.. Oh no.. over slept.. till 8 am.. Woke up in such surprise seeing the clock struck to 8.. First thing came to my mind was.. My friend, Chit Yee haven't reach Amsterdam yet.. She told me it will took about 12 hrs to reach there.. Oh.. it was just 7 hrs + only.. At this time, I didn't have him in mind yet.. hehe.. not really.. But my real 'miss' was Chit Yee.. Indeed we were friends for so long..
Then, I took a quick bath and change to simple t-shirt and jeans, packed my bag and went off to catch the bus.. However, there was no bus as I was abit late to the bus stop. The bus may have just gone before I reached. So I took a taxi to the Kelana Jaya LRT Station.. Started off with such a rush day..
Later in the day, I was sneezing away.. Oh.. I wonder is that a sign? My friends told me that it is a sign of someone missing you.. Really? Is he? Oh.. Don't know.. haha.. Maybe Chit Yee did miss me.. haha.. Or maybe both of them did.. hehe.. :p
The day was very rush and tired and sleepy.. Ya.. all because of the late return from airport.. However, I didn't regret took all the trouble to go airport.. :)
A day of a friend who has left for UK..
This day started to be a bit rush.. hehe.. it is all due to the late nite home back from airport can say this morning.. Reached home about 1 am.. pretty late rite?
Slept.. And suppose to wake up at 7 a.m. to get ready to go class.. Oh no.. over slept.. till 8 am.. Woke up in such surprise seeing the clock struck to 8.. First thing came to my mind was.. My friend, Chit Yee haven't reach Amsterdam yet.. She told me it will took about 12 hrs to reach there.. Oh.. it was just 7 hrs + only.. At this time, I didn't have him in mind yet.. hehe.. not really.. But my real 'miss' was Chit Yee.. Indeed we were friends for so long..
Then, I took a quick bath and change to simple t-shirt and jeans, packed my bag and went off to catch the bus.. However, there was no bus as I was abit late to the bus stop. The bus may have just gone before I reached. So I took a taxi to the Kelana Jaya LRT Station.. Started off with such a rush day..
Later in the day, I was sneezing away.. Oh.. I wonder is that a sign? My friends told me that it is a sign of someone missing you.. Really? Is he? Oh.. Don't know.. haha.. Maybe Chit Yee did miss me.. haha.. Or maybe both of them did.. hehe.. :p
The day was very rush and tired and sleepy.. Ya.. all because of the late return from airport.. However, I didn't regret took all the trouble to go airport.. :)
送飞机的心情
Yesterday, I went to the airport to send my friend, Dear Chit Yee who will leaving to UK.. I was quite sad and 'berat hati' as looking her taking the escallator approaching to the departure counter after the departure gate.. Won't be able to see her for a year.. A bit sad.. However, we took many pictures in the airport..
Actually, he was there too.. Wow.. with his family.. real big family came with him.. We took a pic together, a group one.. Unfortunately didn't turn out good.. Can't see our faces at all.. All blames go to our dear friend who holds the camera.. haha.. Just joking.. Maybe it was meant to be this way.. He did wanted to take a last photo with us at the departure gate.. However, we were too shy especially me, seeing all his family members around.. I didn't join in the picture except one of my friend.. See, I didn't grab the chance.. haha.. A bit angry with myself.. Before going to the airport, have told myself to be a bit brave..haha..
But, I felt a bit embarrased.. Why? A friend of mine who did not join us in our trip to airport called.. And she wished to speak to him.. So, I got to run to him with the phone because I was at the other check in counter with my friend, chit yee, while he was at the other end.. When passing him the phone.. felt embarrased because I am sure his family members will wonder what this girl trying to do? haha..
We can say have a great time.. Not really.. It is because most of the time was spent waiting for my friend, chit yee. It was very crowded in the airport as I guess it was the peak season for students who go for studies in UK. My friend will fly to Amsterdam then change another flight to Bristol.. Her brother was so so so worried for her.. And I think that makes my friend nervous because it is the first time she is going so far.. Sigh.. I just waited patiently as her brother talking to her.. I did told her to realx as it would be easy to just follow others to check in and etc..
Before she goes through the departure, she have a small farewell with her family.. Ya.. She cried as her sis hugged her.. The hug was so long.. I felt tears in my eyes seeing the scene.. I managed to hold on.. As I told myself she will soon be back.. Later, she gave us a big hug indeed was we together hugged her.. My last word to her was take care...
We waved and waved as she took the escallator down to the departure hall.. Really gonna miss her..
About him? hehe.. I realize not so much.. Don't really feel the 'berat hati'... But still have a bit..haha.. But, I am a bit regret as I just said to him 'bye' and that's all.. So, don't know till when we'll meet again. Anyway... Maybe I'll be abit brave, may email him.. See how it goes.. 顺其自然！:p
Actually, he was there too.. Wow.. with his family.. real big family came with him.. We took a pic together, a group one.. Unfortunately didn't turn out good.. Can't see our faces at all.. All blames go to our dear friend who holds the camera.. haha.. Just joking.. Maybe it was meant to be this way.. He did wanted to take a last photo with us at the departure gate.. However, we were too shy especially me, seeing all his family members around.. I didn't join in the picture except one of my friend.. See, I didn't grab the chance.. haha.. A bit angry with myself.. Before going to the airport, have told myself to be a bit brave..haha..
But, I felt a bit embarrased.. Why? A friend of mine who did not join us in our trip to airport called.. And she wished to speak to him.. So, I got to run to him with the phone because I was at the other check in counter with my friend, chit yee, while he was at the other end.. When passing him the phone.. felt embarrased because I am sure his family members will wonder what this girl trying to do? haha..
We can say have a great time.. Not really.. It is because most of the time was spent waiting for my friend, chit yee. It was very crowded in the airport as I guess it was the peak season for students who go for studies in UK. My friend will fly to Amsterdam then change another flight to Bristol.. Her brother was so so so worried for her.. And I think that makes my friend nervous because it is the first time she is going so far.. Sigh.. I just waited patiently as her brother talking to her.. I did told her to realx as it would be easy to just follow others to check in and etc..
Before she goes through the departure, she have a small farewell with her family.. Ya.. She cried as her sis hugged her.. The hug was so long.. I felt tears in my eyes seeing the scene.. I managed to hold on.. As I told myself she will soon be back.. Later, she gave us a big hug indeed was we together hugged her.. My last word to her was take care...
We waved and waved as she took the escallator down to the departure hall.. Really gonna miss her..
About him? hehe.. I realize not so much.. Don't really feel the 'berat hati'... But still have a bit..haha.. But, I am a bit regret as I just said to him 'bye' and that's all.. So, don't know till when we'll meet again. Anyway... Maybe I'll be abit brave, may email him.. See how it goes.. 顺其自然！:p
Sunday, September 19, 2004
顺其自然...... （说得潇洒轻松，但难！〕
I am chatting now with my friend online.. I told her about him as we were having our dinner at burger KIng.. We had have a nice chat and I'll like to thank her a lto for listening to me all the time!
Ya.. I like to always use the phrase 顺其自然 to advise my friends when they faced with relationship problems or doubts.. Then, this friend of mine told me to do so since I have always used it.
Haha.. Interesting.. I did try.. Telling myself that.. However, it is often very true is easier to say it than performing or taking action upon it. Sometimes just can't stop my mind from performing unecessary 'program screening' by screening memory which I won't want. And this 'files' are so hard to delete it as it has being put up with passwords and I have forgotten the passwords. So, I cant do anything to it except just allowing it to stay.
Sigh.. Human is just like that. Somemore I am just another ordinary girl on earth.
So, I'll to say "Wai San, Cheer up! 顺其自然！” 哈哈......
Ya.. I like to always use the phrase 顺其自然 to advise my friends when they faced with relationship problems or doubts.. Then, this friend of mine told me to do so since I have always used it.
Haha.. Interesting.. I did try.. Telling myself that.. However, it is often very true is easier to say it than performing or taking action upon it. Sometimes just can't stop my mind from performing unecessary 'program screening' by screening memory which I won't want. And this 'files' are so hard to delete it as it has being put up with passwords and I have forgotten the passwords. So, I cant do anything to it except just allowing it to stay.
Sigh.. Human is just like that. Somemore I am just another ordinary girl on earth.
So, I'll to say "Wai San, Cheer up! 顺其自然！” 哈哈......
猜想......
猜想。 猜想着很多东西。
最近， 听到一首歌。 是蔡依林的歌。歌曲正是 《猜想〉。 这首歌的词正描写到我最近的心情。
这首歌是这样的：
大雷雨下一场 世界变得清爽
空气弥漫一种绿色的芬芳
幻灭一个梦想 心情有些冰凉
一整晚跟你讲 说完就不忧伤
在擦肩而过时候 眼神会开始闪烁
在了解爱以后 心情会变得轻松
※我猜想 还猜想
有你在的地方
我猜想 还猜想
一定会不一样
开心就往前跑 一定要做得到
忧伤也不能逃 对自己要骄傲
在孤单寂寞时候
觉得着世界罗嗦
在渴望爱情时候 好想看到你经过
※ 我猜想 还猜想
我们走的方向
我猜想 还猜想
会不会一样
就算最后总难免小小伤心
至少尽情享受痛快的年轻
你的微笑
会一直陪伴着我
这首歌正叙述了我的心情。唉... 他明天正要离开了。 我会到机场去。 我不晓得他知道吗？ 我的那位朋友是否有告诉他我们的到来？ 心里很矛盾。很想让他知道我对他的想法。 却对自己毫无信心。
想很多。或许想太多了。把自己也搞得闷闷不乐。 我心里告诉自己说要和他一起努力。努力完成我们的学业。 这番话好想对他说。
明天，我一定要把握好机会，好好和他聊聊。还有当然和他来个合照！希望如此。
心里会一直祝福他。也希望他不会把我给忘了。希望他会EMAIL 我啦！:)
最近， 听到一首歌。 是蔡依林的歌。歌曲正是 《猜想〉。 这首歌的词正描写到我最近的心情。
这首歌是这样的：
大雷雨下一场 世界变得清爽
空气弥漫一种绿色的芬芳
幻灭一个梦想 心情有些冰凉
一整晚跟你讲 说完就不忧伤
在擦肩而过时候 眼神会开始闪烁
在了解爱以后 心情会变得轻松
※我猜想 还猜想
有你在的地方
我猜想 还猜想
一定会不一样
开心就往前跑 一定要做得到
忧伤也不能逃 对自己要骄傲
在孤单寂寞时候
觉得着世界罗嗦
在渴望爱情时候 好想看到你经过
※ 我猜想 还猜想
我们走的方向
我猜想 还猜想
会不会一样
就算最后总难免小小伤心
至少尽情享受痛快的年轻
你的微笑
会一直陪伴着我
这首歌正叙述了我的心情。唉... 他明天正要离开了。 我会到机场去。 我不晓得他知道吗？ 我的那位朋友是否有告诉他我们的到来？ 心里很矛盾。很想让他知道我对他的想法。 却对自己毫无信心。
想很多。或许想太多了。把自己也搞得闷闷不乐。 我心里告诉自己说要和他一起努力。努力完成我们的学业。 这番话好想对他说。
明天，我一定要把握好机会，好好和他聊聊。还有当然和他来个合照！希望如此。
心里会一直祝福他。也希望他不会把我给忘了。希望他会EMAIL 我啦！:)
Friday, September 17, 2004
Liking a Person.. He knows about that?
Liking a person while he don't know about that.. Is very pityful..haha.. :p
Oh.. I think I have started to like him.. Yeah.. pretty moody and down these few days.. Because he will soon leaves Malaysia and head for U.K. to study.. Sure, I won't be able to see him around..
This week started as a bad day.. I wish to see him around college... Thought he might come back to visit his friends so on.. but 'searching' high and low.. can't find any of his 'bayang'..haha.. a bit dossappoited.. And this is the first day of this week..
Second day, still looking around to find him.. Yet to see him too.. Feel very sad and dissappoint.. And hope he will even send me a sms.. NO.. No sms from him..
Ya.. I started to think.. Me and him not even can say 'friends'.. What reason will he even sms me.. So sad.. after having this thought..
On this very same night, I made an excuse to sms him... I asked in the message how he did for his resit exam.. He did reply.. He told quite a lot of things.. saying what he did this day n when he has collected his result and when will he be flying off too... Very happy to read the message.. AND he did wish me all the best.. Haha.. However.. this don't mean anything, rite? I know.. The answer is 'yes'..
Third day of this week (Wed, 15th Sept).. One of my friend who also going to UK came back to hometown and came to college to visit us.. I went to meet her in college.. And he was there too.. But, he didn't say anything to me also.. I was rushing to class so I din even greet him.. I felt bad.. But.. he didn't also.. Feel sad too.. Later in the afternoon.. I saw him again.. He still around in college.. He went to the UPO office.. And I saw him.. I made an excuse to go to that office saying I want to find the scholarship in charge person.. And I don't know if he saw me walking into that office.. I don't think so.. After speaking to the scholrship in charge person, I went out.. At the door, I met him face to face.. I looked at him.. just right in front of him.. He didn't even see me!!!!!!!! Later, he did notice.. just a surprise 'Hi'.. and I just walked out.. See.. I was a bit sad..
Today.. Ya.. unexpectedly I met him again.. In front of library while me and my friends are heading for lunch.. It was pretty crowdy outside the library... As I was pushing the door exiting the library.. He was right there outside.. At first, I din notice him till my friend told me.. in just a short moment..
I stood there talking to my friend while waiting for another friend.. He was there too.. I wasn't so sure if I should look at him.. Later as he was leaving, he did say 'Hi' to us.. I was a bit happy yet sad too.. coz I wonder if he really notice me..
Now.. I wonder and wonder.. I hope there's an answer.. But I worried as I hope to much, I got dissappointed more..
One of the reason made me so 'INSPIRED' to go the airport to fetch my the other friend this sunday is -He's there too.. But I dunno what will happen... Will I cry? But if I do, He won't know the tears were for him.. He might think it is for my the other friend who are leaving..
Or, I won't be able to see him.. Coz we are just going for a short while coz it's pretty late..SO, we won't stay long. Maybe won't be able to see him too..
I don't know if he even will keep in contact with me after he left for UK.. as he didn't even ask for my email, etc.. And He didn't give 'us' his also..
Don't know.. I am left with myself a lot of questions marks ... ??????
Oh.. I think I have started to like him.. Yeah.. pretty moody and down these few days.. Because he will soon leaves Malaysia and head for U.K. to study.. Sure, I won't be able to see him around..
This week started as a bad day.. I wish to see him around college... Thought he might come back to visit his friends so on.. but 'searching' high and low.. can't find any of his 'bayang'..haha.. a bit dossappoited.. And this is the first day of this week..
Second day, still looking around to find him.. Yet to see him too.. Feel very sad and dissappoint.. And hope he will even send me a sms.. NO.. No sms from him..
Ya.. I started to think.. Me and him not even can say 'friends'.. What reason will he even sms me.. So sad.. after having this thought..
On this very same night, I made an excuse to sms him... I asked in the message how he did for his resit exam.. He did reply.. He told quite a lot of things.. saying what he did this day n when he has collected his result and when will he be flying off too... Very happy to read the message.. AND he did wish me all the best.. Haha.. However.. this don't mean anything, rite? I know.. The answer is 'yes'..
Third day of this week (Wed, 15th Sept).. One of my friend who also going to UK came back to hometown and came to college to visit us.. I went to meet her in college.. And he was there too.. But, he didn't say anything to me also.. I was rushing to class so I din even greet him.. I felt bad.. But.. he didn't also.. Feel sad too.. Later in the afternoon.. I saw him again.. He still around in college.. He went to the UPO office.. And I saw him.. I made an excuse to go to that office saying I want to find the scholarship in charge person.. And I don't know if he saw me walking into that office.. I don't think so.. After speaking to the scholrship in charge person, I went out.. At the door, I met him face to face.. I looked at him.. just right in front of him.. He didn't even see me!!!!!!!! Later, he did notice.. just a surprise 'Hi'.. and I just walked out.. See.. I was a bit sad..
Today.. Ya.. unexpectedly I met him again.. In front of library while me and my friends are heading for lunch.. It was pretty crowdy outside the library... As I was pushing the door exiting the library.. He was right there outside.. At first, I din notice him till my friend told me.. in just a short moment..
I stood there talking to my friend while waiting for another friend.. He was there too.. I wasn't so sure if I should look at him.. Later as he was leaving, he did say 'Hi' to us.. I was a bit happy yet sad too.. coz I wonder if he really notice me..
Now.. I wonder and wonder.. I hope there's an answer.. But I worried as I hope to much, I got dissappointed more..
One of the reason made me so 'INSPIRED' to go the airport to fetch my the other friend this sunday is -He's there too.. But I dunno what will happen... Will I cry? But if I do, He won't know the tears were for him.. He might think it is for my the other friend who are leaving..
Or, I won't be able to see him.. Coz we are just going for a short while coz it's pretty late..SO, we won't stay long. Maybe won't be able to see him too..
I don't know if he even will keep in contact with me after he left for UK.. as he didn't even ask for my email, etc.. And He didn't give 'us' his also..
Don't know.. I am left with myself a lot of questions marks ... ??????
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
明明喜欢你
明明就是喜欢一个人， 却不敢开口。 如今，那个人已不在。 剩下我在这儿叹气。 听了品冠和梁静茹合唱的那首《明明很爱你〉， 更感受到那份无奈。
有多少人在旁边 我们都视而不见
彼此却忍不住多看一眼 感觉强烈
已经微笑的放电 已经暗示到极点
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间 幸福就飘过眼前
我平凡无奇而你 像灿烂星星 让我担心
明明很爱你 明明想靠近
但是你的身边有人捧花总是拥挤
我凭什么一一打败情敌
敢大声说要做你的唯一
明明很爱你 明明想靠近
为什么还在浪费时间不把你抱紧
够真心 才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意
这每一句歌词都说中了我心中的话。 但人已不在，不知他过得好吗？
有多少人在旁边 我们都视而不见
彼此却忍不住多看一眼 感觉强烈
已经微笑的放电 已经暗示到极点
没勇气的人犹豫的瞬间 幸福就飘过眼前
我平凡无奇而你 像灿烂星星 让我担心
明明很爱你 明明想靠近
但是你的身边有人捧花总是拥挤
我凭什么一一打败情敌
敢大声说要做你的唯一
明明很爱你 明明想靠近
为什么还在浪费时间不把你抱紧
够真心 才是最厉害的武器
我会拼命让你更满意
这每一句歌词都说中了我心中的话。 但人已不在，不知他过得好吗？
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Oh.. He is leaving soon... : (
Yesterday (10th September 2004, Friday), we have had a farewell party for all those we knew who will be leaving to further their studies in UK. We have a wonderful time gathering around having our lunch at the WINDY'S CAFE.. It's a nice place and of course it's great to have everyone around.. And, of course, he is invited too! :)
We also prepared presents for him and other friends..hehe.. Actually, my other frineds didn't buy him anything.. So, I have an extra gift prepared.. So, we gave it to him.. Is a winter scarf.. Hope he'll like it! Actually, last 2 weeks ago, I already gave him a small key change.. Hope he like it lar.. :p
Erm.. feel a bit 'berat hati' because it would be the last time I'll be seeing him around.. coz as approaching to the date of their flight.. He won't be around at Subang or college anymore.. Sure, he will want to spend his time with family back at hometown..
Sigh..
I wish I could go to KLIA on the day he and my other friends who will be 'flying' to UK too.. Unfortunately, I do not have transport and their flight is a midnight flight... How could I get there and back from KLIA?
I wanted to have a photo with him.. Got..but a group photo..haha.. Anyway.. not nice to ask also..hehe..
See.. I don't know how.. just a little hope that will keep in contact after he left for UK.. will we? or will he? Maybe he didn't even care...
I am a bit 'sesat' nowadays.. I always said the wrong things in front of him..haha.. Hope he won't mind.. :p I 'sesat' until sometimes I don't know what to say even I want to say something.. hehe.. can't keep on like that..
Ok lar.. I think what the best thing I could do is just send all my wishes to him like ALL THE BEST, GOOD LUCK and TAKE CARE!
Will miss him...
We also prepared presents for him and other friends..hehe.. Actually, my other frineds didn't buy him anything.. So, I have an extra gift prepared.. So, we gave it to him.. Is a winter scarf.. Hope he'll like it! Actually, last 2 weeks ago, I already gave him a small key change.. Hope he like it lar.. :p
Erm.. feel a bit 'berat hati' because it would be the last time I'll be seeing him around.. coz as approaching to the date of their flight.. He won't be around at Subang or college anymore.. Sure, he will want to spend his time with family back at hometown..
Sigh..
I wish I could go to KLIA on the day he and my other friends who will be 'flying' to UK too.. Unfortunately, I do not have transport and their flight is a midnight flight... How could I get there and back from KLIA?
I wanted to have a photo with him.. Got..but a group photo..haha.. Anyway.. not nice to ask also..hehe..
See.. I don't know how.. just a little hope that will keep in contact after he left for UK.. will we? or will he? Maybe he didn't even care...
I am a bit 'sesat' nowadays.. I always said the wrong things in front of him..haha.. Hope he won't mind.. :p I 'sesat' until sometimes I don't know what to say even I want to say something.. hehe.. can't keep on like that..
Ok lar.. I think what the best thing I could do is just send all my wishes to him like ALL THE BEST, GOOD LUCK and TAKE CARE!
Will miss him...
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Hey Friend, What u want me to do????
Hey U friend.. What u wan me to do to satisfy u?? Did u ever treat ur friend?
U tell me... What should I do? I just telling myself forget whatever you done to me.. and Forgive..
Now.. What do you mean by doin this? Adding everyone in your friendster except me.. Trying to hint me something? Not friend? U know, how sad it is? Known you for all these years.. U treat me like that...
You know who you are! I am really SAD!!! = (
U tell me... What should I do? I just telling myself forget whatever you done to me.. and Forgive..
Now.. What do you mean by doin this? Adding everyone in your friendster except me.. Trying to hint me something? Not friend? U know, how sad it is? Known you for all these years.. U treat me like that...
You know who you are! I am really SAD!!! = (
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Oh.. I am happy today coz...
Oh.. I am quite happy today.. Last night, I still thinking about why he did not sms me? Have he unwrapped the present? What would be his reaction then? Will he like it? Then, why no SMS to say something about the present I gave him?
Many, many questions just can't stop poping into my mind... I really wonder if he got even notice the small little keychange I gave him?? I gave it to him on the Wednesday.. Hoping he will see it as soon as possible and waiting for something to happen.. Waited the whole wednesday.. can't stop looking at my handphone, checking if there is any message.. No..No.. No message at all.. sigh.. a bit down..
Sigh, waited for another day.. that was yesterday.. No SMS too.. sigh.. I started to think sure he did not like it.. or just have put it aside as he reached home.. Oh no.. also can't stop looking at my handphone time to time.. taking out from pocket.. looked at it several times in an hour.. sigh.. still nothing...
Then, online met my friend..told her about it.. She said guys are like that.. Careless people.. will not send a SMS just to say even a THANK YOU.. Oh.. it might be true, ya..
Telling myself.. forget about it.. Maybe what my friend has said was true.. guys are like that.. maybe.. But don't know why just can't put it down.. haha..
Then.. Today!!! Yes, he sms me already.. I received it in the night.. I was so happy although was just a simple message saying thank you.. and he said he like it.. Really? but.. I don't know which present he meant.. coz there are 2 presents in the bag.. One is a 'thank you' present from 6 of us to say thank you for bringing us around Malacca.. Another one is a small gift I bought for him to wish him 'All the best' when he's in UK.. Which one he refer to??? See.. I am such a person.. haha..
Anyway.. This little message really has cheered up my day.. haha.. Erm.. But I wish or hope it would be more SMS.. haha.. Greedy hor me??? hehe.. BUT I think it would not happen lor.. I dun think he will sms me for nothing lor.. He won't lor.. If I sms him also don't know use what 'excuse' wor.. Therefore, I think the more I asked, maybe the more I don't get it.. :(..haha..
Hey... I am telling myself.. Don't think too much lar.. But Thank GOD!!! Really he answered my prayer!!!
:p
Many, many questions just can't stop poping into my mind... I really wonder if he got even notice the small little keychange I gave him?? I gave it to him on the Wednesday.. Hoping he will see it as soon as possible and waiting for something to happen.. Waited the whole wednesday.. can't stop looking at my handphone, checking if there is any message.. No..No.. No message at all.. sigh.. a bit down..
Sigh, waited for another day.. that was yesterday.. No SMS too.. sigh.. I started to think sure he did not like it.. or just have put it aside as he reached home.. Oh no.. also can't stop looking at my handphone time to time.. taking out from pocket.. looked at it several times in an hour.. sigh.. still nothing...
Then, online met my friend..told her about it.. She said guys are like that.. Careless people.. will not send a SMS just to say even a THANK YOU.. Oh.. it might be true, ya..
Telling myself.. forget about it.. Maybe what my friend has said was true.. guys are like that.. maybe.. But don't know why just can't put it down.. haha..
Then.. Today!!! Yes, he sms me already.. I received it in the night.. I was so happy although was just a simple message saying thank you.. and he said he like it.. Really? but.. I don't know which present he meant.. coz there are 2 presents in the bag.. One is a 'thank you' present from 6 of us to say thank you for bringing us around Malacca.. Another one is a small gift I bought for him to wish him 'All the best' when he's in UK.. Which one he refer to??? See.. I am such a person.. haha..
Anyway.. This little message really has cheered up my day.. haha.. Erm.. But I wish or hope it would be more SMS.. haha.. Greedy hor me??? hehe.. BUT I think it would not happen lor.. I dun think he will sms me for nothing lor.. He won't lor.. If I sms him also don't know use what 'excuse' wor.. Therefore, I think the more I asked, maybe the more I don't get it.. :(..haha..
Hey... I am telling myself.. Don't think too much lar.. But Thank GOD!!! Really he answered my prayer!!!
:p
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Borned in the Month of March
Oh..I am borned in the month of MARCH.. I love this month a lot and is my lucky month.. why?
Aiyah.. coz my birthday month mar..
I got something from an e-mail which describe about me.. hehe... so check it out..
~ Attractive personality (ya..haha.. of course!!! BUT I don't find 'flies' around me wan????)
~ Affectionate (oh sure.. I always buy gifts for my beloved friends and of course try to show my admiration towards someone.. :P)
~ Shy and reserved ( Agree.. I am always shy towards guys.. especially to the one I like!)
~ Secretive (Erm.. not so agree wor.. I don't think I am one.. Maybe to someone I don't know..)
~ Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic ( 100% agree..haha.. That's why I have many dogs in my house..haha..)
~ Love peace and serenity ( Of course.. I don't like WAR and fights!)
~ Sensitive to others (definitely agree.. I always sensitive to many things.. frens u agree with me? haha..)
~ Loves to serve others (Ya.. I like charity.. I was a Red Crescent member and like to help..=>)
~ Not easily angered (Erm..not so true lor.. I am quite easy anger wan.. but to friends not wor..hehe..)
~ Trustworthy ( Ya..u can trust me with all your heart!!!)
~ Appreciate and return kindness (Of course must do that lar.. I agree)
~ Observant and assess others (ya.. I think I am an observant person!)
~ Revengeful (Oh.. bad.. Am I?)
~ Loves to dream and fantasize (Agree..That's why my blog is F@nt@nsy ... hehe..)
~ Loves travelling (love too, but financially don't allow me to do so)
~ Loves attention (Of course! I am a girl wor.. sure need u GUYS attention! haha..)
~ Hasty decision in choosing partners (Oh..is that I still can't find my Mr. Right?)
~ Loves home decors (love..but pure designer..)
~ Musically talented (Oh..GREAT! I love music!)
~ Loves special things (Erm... ya gua..)
~ Moody (Really? Oh.. Ya.. sometimes and most of the times..haha)
So, friends how? Agree? hehe..I think quite accurate for me..
Aiyah.. coz my birthday month mar..
I got something from an e-mail which describe about me.. hehe... so check it out..
~ Attractive personality (ya..haha.. of course!!! BUT I don't find 'flies' around me wan????)
~ Affectionate (oh sure.. I always buy gifts for my beloved friends and of course try to show my admiration towards someone.. :P)
~ Shy and reserved ( Agree.. I am always shy towards guys.. especially to the one I like!)
~ Secretive (Erm.. not so agree wor.. I don't think I am one.. Maybe to someone I don't know..)
~ Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic ( 100% agree..haha.. That's why I have many dogs in my house..haha..)
~ Love peace and serenity ( Of course.. I don't like WAR and fights!)
~ Sensitive to others (definitely agree.. I always sensitive to many things.. frens u agree with me? haha..)
~ Loves to serve others (Ya.. I like charity.. I was a Red Crescent member and like to help..=>)
~ Not easily angered (Erm..not so true lor.. I am quite easy anger wan.. but to friends not wor..hehe..)
~ Trustworthy ( Ya..u can trust me with all your heart!!!)
~ Appreciate and return kindness (Of course must do that lar.. I agree)
~ Observant and assess others (ya.. I think I am an observant person!)
~ Revengeful (Oh.. bad.. Am I?)
~ Loves to dream and fantasize (Agree..That's why my blog is F@nt@nsy ... hehe..)
~ Loves travelling (love too, but financially don't allow me to do so)
~ Loves attention (Of course! I am a girl wor.. sure need u GUYS attention! haha..)
~ Hasty decision in choosing partners (Oh..is that I still can't find my Mr. Right?)
~ Loves home decors (love..but pure designer..)
~ Musically talented (Oh..GREAT! I love music!)
~ Loves special things (Erm... ya gua..)
~ Moody (Really? Oh.. Ya.. sometimes and most of the times..haha)
So, friends how? Agree? hehe..I think quite accurate for me..
Where's my Mr. Right? ;P
Where's my Mr. Right? Not Mr. Left.. but my Mr. Right..
Looking around.. Looking to the left, to the right, up and down.. still searching.. But could not find one.. Perhaps the one I like do not like me..
Erm.. Sometimes is fun to sit in the Coffee Bean or Starbuck alone.. and start looking out to those people walking on the street.. Checking and screening for my Mr. Right.. HAHA.. but so far not yet found one..
Or I should start printing poster searching for my Mr. Right like those who did when they have lost their pets? But I don't lost anything.. Oh.. what a stupid idea!!!
So, where's my Mr. Right..? haha.. Actually, I just wanna look around and search for a person who I can lean on whenever I am tired.. whenever I am sad he will lend me a shoulder to cry on.. haha..
Anyway, this post is just to tell everyone and all couples please appreciate your partners. Please treat them as nice as possible and try not to hurt them! The best is DON'T hurt them at all..
OK lar.. I also dunno what I want to write.. Just wanna write something to fill my time and 'boringness'.. :p
Looking around.. Looking to the left, to the right, up and down.. still searching.. But could not find one.. Perhaps the one I like do not like me..
Erm.. Sometimes is fun to sit in the Coffee Bean or Starbuck alone.. and start looking out to those people walking on the street.. Checking and screening for my Mr. Right.. HAHA.. but so far not yet found one..
Or I should start printing poster searching for my Mr. Right like those who did when they have lost their pets? But I don't lost anything.. Oh.. what a stupid idea!!!
So, where's my Mr. Right..? haha.. Actually, I just wanna look around and search for a person who I can lean on whenever I am tired.. whenever I am sad he will lend me a shoulder to cry on.. haha..
Anyway, this post is just to tell everyone and all couples please appreciate your partners. Please treat them as nice as possible and try not to hurt them! The best is DON'T hurt them at all..
OK lar.. I also dunno what I want to write.. Just wanna write something to fill my time and 'boringness'.. :p
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
My April 2004 Semester...
Sigh.. going to start a new semester soon..next week, my class going to start.. so fast.. but this holiday, I felt that I didn't do anything good.. haha.. like wasted a lot of time..
Recalling my past semester I just had.. it can say so as a not so good semester.. many things which I consider not good happen.. Friends problem.. Studies problem, etc.. I nearly gone crazy studying and going through all these problems..
Approaching my final, there was a strong 'hit' to me as betrayal of friends happen.. like someone punched you without you noticing.. so pain!!! I kept on thinking and thinking what happened? but couldn't find an answer till today.. sigh.. It was so hurt.. maybe I should sing the song 'HURT' by Nicholas Zhang (Zhang Dong Liang) instead of him singing it... haha..
Then, i couldn't catch up with my studies coz I don't know where all my time gone.. last minute a lot.. last minute assignment, last minute study for test.. all my tests were terrible.. my coursework marks too... I was nearly going crazy studying for my final examinations too.. everything last minute.. and suddenly found out so many problems.. like some topics I don't understand.. what to do? too late.. so just tried my very best.. Luckily, I did quite well, unexpectedly..
Recalling my last semester.. I really regret I did not plan or schedule my time probably.. Oh.. This semester hope I won't be making the same mistakes again...
Sigh.. I wonder really.. Friends.. Why could she do it to me.. I don't know.. I am really sad.. and disappointed..
Ya, last semester.. I have been so emotional.. Sadness always flows through me.. don't know why..can be sad so easily over some matters.. Is it I have grown up? haha..should be..should be..
Anyway.. There was one fun event throughout my holiday.. is my Malacca trip. Although it was just a short 2 days 1 night trip.. I have a lot of fun.. Thanks to our tour guides, Emily and Edmund!
Ok lar.. I must be tough and strong.. I want to find back the 'Wai San' who won't fall so easily.. Yeah.. That's use to be ME.. :P
Recalling my past semester I just had.. it can say so as a not so good semester.. many things which I consider not good happen.. Friends problem.. Studies problem, etc.. I nearly gone crazy studying and going through all these problems..
Approaching my final, there was a strong 'hit' to me as betrayal of friends happen.. like someone punched you without you noticing.. so pain!!! I kept on thinking and thinking what happened? but couldn't find an answer till today.. sigh.. It was so hurt.. maybe I should sing the song 'HURT' by Nicholas Zhang (Zhang Dong Liang) instead of him singing it... haha..
Then, i couldn't catch up with my studies coz I don't know where all my time gone.. last minute a lot.. last minute assignment, last minute study for test.. all my tests were terrible.. my coursework marks too... I was nearly going crazy studying for my final examinations too.. everything last minute.. and suddenly found out so many problems.. like some topics I don't understand.. what to do? too late.. so just tried my very best.. Luckily, I did quite well, unexpectedly..
Recalling my last semester.. I really regret I did not plan or schedule my time probably.. Oh.. This semester hope I won't be making the same mistakes again...
Sigh.. I wonder really.. Friends.. Why could she do it to me.. I don't know.. I am really sad.. and disappointed..
Ya, last semester.. I have been so emotional.. Sadness always flows through me.. don't know why..can be sad so easily over some matters.. Is it I have grown up? haha..should be..should be..
Anyway.. There was one fun event throughout my holiday.. is my Malacca trip. Although it was just a short 2 days 1 night trip.. I have a lot of fun.. Thanks to our tour guides, Emily and Edmund!
Ok lar.. I must be tough and strong.. I want to find back the 'Wai San' who won't fall so easily.. Yeah.. That's use to be ME.. :P
Sunday, August 29, 2004
What Happen to me??????????
What has happened to me? What has happened to my family? I felt so lost... Where should I head for solutions??
I don't know since when I become so miserable.. I don't know why there are so many unhappy stuffs happening around me..Or I have became a pesimist person..That's why everything to me are such 'unhappy'?
My family... My family background has brought me up to a person that is lacked of self-confidence.. You may see me standing on the stage giving speeches or presentation with no fear or very confidence.. But, in actual fact, I am not a person who has self-confidence.. Especially when I met someone that I like, I will never have the courage to tell him.. The most important fact is not no courage, but no SELF CONFIDENCE..
What kind of family I am from? How should I say it or describe it? Although I have many many friends but only 1 or 2 knew about my family background such as what a person is my father? Not even my very best friend know well about me.. I may look tough and happy-going person.. But, I am not.. Deep down in my heart.. I always filled with worries and sadness...
I wish I could grown up fast enough to bring my mother and sisters away.. And make them have a happy lives and live without sadness... I wish I could be a success person and no one knows about my family..
I wish to find love.. Love that let me feel secure.. In the family.. I don't have such securing love.. I knew I have to work extra hard for things.. And I did and did it with my most sincere heart.. But, why there are so call betrayal of friends.. Friends to me are important..and I have never try to hurt any of them.. Why in return I get is betrayal?
I am scared I couldn't find someone that loves me.. I wish there is someone to 'save' me from such a situation... Yes, there is.. I trust in GOD.. coz I am a christian.. I know HE will one day bring me the best guy.. Thank you..
Anyway.. I really got a lot of problems hide deep in my heart.. I don't know how to tell.. coz it may take days to finish my story.. And there wouldn't be anyone willingly to be listening to such a long long story..
I hope I can keep tough and strong and walk through, in the midst of all these problems.. :>
I don't know since when I become so miserable.. I don't know why there are so many unhappy stuffs happening around me..Or I have became a pesimist person..That's why everything to me are such 'unhappy'?
My family... My family background has brought me up to a person that is lacked of self-confidence.. You may see me standing on the stage giving speeches or presentation with no fear or very confidence.. But, in actual fact, I am not a person who has self-confidence.. Especially when I met someone that I like, I will never have the courage to tell him.. The most important fact is not no courage, but no SELF CONFIDENCE..
What kind of family I am from? How should I say it or describe it? Although I have many many friends but only 1 or 2 knew about my family background such as what a person is my father? Not even my very best friend know well about me.. I may look tough and happy-going person.. But, I am not.. Deep down in my heart.. I always filled with worries and sadness...
I wish I could grown up fast enough to bring my mother and sisters away.. And make them have a happy lives and live without sadness... I wish I could be a success person and no one knows about my family..
I wish to find love.. Love that let me feel secure.. In the family.. I don't have such securing love.. I knew I have to work extra hard for things.. And I did and did it with my most sincere heart.. But, why there are so call betrayal of friends.. Friends to me are important..and I have never try to hurt any of them.. Why in return I get is betrayal?
I am scared I couldn't find someone that loves me.. I wish there is someone to 'save' me from such a situation... Yes, there is.. I trust in GOD.. coz I am a christian.. I know HE will one day bring me the best guy.. Thank you..
Anyway.. I really got a lot of problems hide deep in my heart.. I don't know how to tell.. coz it may take days to finish my story.. And there wouldn't be anyone willingly to be listening to such a long long story..
I hope I can keep tough and strong and walk through, in the midst of all these problems.. :>
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Friends..Gonna Miss U guys...
Wow, time passes by like speed of light...
So fast, it is soon be end of the month of August 2004... And very soon, some of my friends will be leaving to U.K. for their level 3 studies... Of course, I will be still around in Malaysia..
These friends of mine will soon be leaving on the 17th of September.. Pretty soon.. Really will miss them.. have been with them for so long...already for 2 years plus... and now they are leaving me behind..sigh...
Besides my these college friends leaving to overseas..there are 2 more my best friends will soon be leaving for their studies too.. Really gonna miss these 2 friends of mine..wonder whoelse will be free chatting with me on the phone, walking with me in the shopping complex, doing window shoppings, visiting each others home, celebrating each other birthdays..etc..wonder next time I'll be doing all these stuffs by myself. Sigh...
Seeing everyone 'flying' away.. I wish I could too.. I am sure I will miss a lot o fun without having them with me.. They have brought me laughter and comfort whenever we were together... I wonder after they left for studies, would I be able to find these laughters and comforts when I need them..??
Although they aren't goin for long, just 1 or 2 years..but these 1 or 2 years can be pretty long especially if you are feeling empty and lonely... Ya..I am a person who forever need friends to be around me.. So, how if they are gone? especially my 2 very best friends who have always attended to me when I was down and sad.. I really wonder who can I go to when I need someone..haha.. Gotta be independent..independent of living without my friends around..
Anyway, I am glad as they can further their studies in oveseas. It would be a great opportunity for someone to gain experience and learn as much as they can from others (overseas). Here, I would like to wish all my friends:
ALL THE BEST IN ALL YOUR UNDERTAKINGS!!!
Lastly, my dear friends, FORGET ME NOT! Do send me simple emails as you guys are free..
Gonna miss you all!
So fast, it is soon be end of the month of August 2004... And very soon, some of my friends will be leaving to U.K. for their level 3 studies... Of course, I will be still around in Malaysia..
These friends of mine will soon be leaving on the 17th of September.. Pretty soon.. Really will miss them.. have been with them for so long...already for 2 years plus... and now they are leaving me behind..sigh...
Besides my these college friends leaving to overseas..there are 2 more my best friends will soon be leaving for their studies too.. Really gonna miss these 2 friends of mine..wonder whoelse will be free chatting with me on the phone, walking with me in the shopping complex, doing window shoppings, visiting each others home, celebrating each other birthdays..etc..wonder next time I'll be doing all these stuffs by myself. Sigh...
Seeing everyone 'flying' away.. I wish I could too.. I am sure I will miss a lot o fun without having them with me.. They have brought me laughter and comfort whenever we were together... I wonder after they left for studies, would I be able to find these laughters and comforts when I need them..??
Although they aren't goin for long, just 1 or 2 years..but these 1 or 2 years can be pretty long especially if you are feeling empty and lonely... Ya..I am a person who forever need friends to be around me.. So, how if they are gone? especially my 2 very best friends who have always attended to me when I was down and sad.. I really wonder who can I go to when I need someone..haha.. Gotta be independent..independent of living without my friends around..
Anyway, I am glad as they can further their studies in oveseas. It would be a great opportunity for someone to gain experience and learn as much as they can from others (overseas). Here, I would like to wish all my friends:
ALL THE BEST IN ALL YOUR UNDERTAKINGS!!!
Lastly, my dear friends, FORGET ME NOT! Do send me simple emails as you guys are free..
Gonna miss you all!
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
LOVE LOVE LOVE..
Oh..Love..Love..Love..
Every girl dream of a perfect love...Do you guys too? Most of the girls are waiting for their 'white horse prince' to appear in their lives.. So do I.. But when, where, and how? ahaha.. Is there a formula like mathematics or any science experiments to arrive to the answer?
If there is, surely it would be great...
Love.. is very precious..I think.. My white horse prince..he need not be very good looking..he need not be a rich person, he need not be very very extremely smart (coz in my eyes he is a perfect one)..haha..The most important is he MUST be gentleman, caring and kind and of course good to me...hehe.. Is it hard to find someone like this? True, it is... Or my requirements are too hard to achieve...I don't know...sigh..
If you met someone you really like, please go for it..That's what most people will tell you so.. But is there the courage for a girl to do so? I presume no, at least I am not at this moment..Or because I do not have this courage, I have missed many chances, as they passes by me..
Ya..there was someone in my life that I have missed..Haha..not really my life yet.. There was a guy who was so good to me.. And I didn't realize it..When I did, it was too late..he has already gone with someone..haha..In this case, I am 'slow', real 'slow'..see the problem? He didn't tell me..haha..Now, I am blaming and complaining..haha..
Now, I am waiting..waiting someone to appear in my life..and I don't know how long it would take..And if I really found one, I am not so sure do I have the courage to tell him..Do I? I don't know..or maybe he isn't the one yet?
Can I say I do have a target now? Ya..can say so..But I do not have the courage to tell the person..And he will soon not around here..Sigh..Maybe he didn't even notice my existence or presence..haha..anyway..I would want to send all my best wishes to him, wish him 'all the best in his undertakings' . Kolot? ya..haha..but what to do..?
Ok lar..wish all the couples to be happily and together forever..and those who still seeking their 'love', will find one soon..
Every girl dream of a perfect love...Do you guys too? Most of the girls are waiting for their 'white horse prince' to appear in their lives.. So do I.. But when, where, and how? ahaha.. Is there a formula like mathematics or any science experiments to arrive to the answer?
If there is, surely it would be great...
Love.. is very precious..I think.. My white horse prince..he need not be very good looking..he need not be a rich person, he need not be very very extremely smart (coz in my eyes he is a perfect one)..haha..The most important is he MUST be gentleman, caring and kind and of course good to me...hehe.. Is it hard to find someone like this? True, it is... Or my requirements are too hard to achieve...I don't know...sigh..
If you met someone you really like, please go for it..That's what most people will tell you so.. But is there the courage for a girl to do so? I presume no, at least I am not at this moment..Or because I do not have this courage, I have missed many chances, as they passes by me..
Ya..there was someone in my life that I have missed..Haha..not really my life yet.. There was a guy who was so good to me.. And I didn't realize it..When I did, it was too late..he has already gone with someone..haha..In this case, I am 'slow', real 'slow'..see the problem? He didn't tell me..haha..Now, I am blaming and complaining..haha..
Now, I am waiting..waiting someone to appear in my life..and I don't know how long it would take..And if I really found one, I am not so sure do I have the courage to tell him..Do I? I don't know..or maybe he isn't the one yet?
Can I say I do have a target now? Ya..can say so..But I do not have the courage to tell the person..And he will soon not around here..Sigh..Maybe he didn't even notice my existence or presence..haha..anyway..I would want to send all my best wishes to him, wish him 'all the best in his undertakings' . Kolot? ya..haha..but what to do..?
Ok lar..wish all the couples to be happily and together forever..and those who still seeking their 'love', will find one soon..
Monday, August 23, 2004
Nearly got Bitten by a Dog in Malacca..haha..
U know? I am a person that like animals a lot..
So, this time is really..nearly got bitten by a dog..and quite embarrasing too..haha..
I went to Malacca for a trip with my college friends last Thursday and Friday. So, on the Thursday evening, our 'tour guide' brought us to a shop to buy some traditional 'food' back to Kuala Lumpur as requested by my other friends..
So, we arrived at this shop. The owner of the shop has a dog..quite cute..white curly fur, small size.. And he keep on watching us from the fence.. So, I was attracted by 'him'..haha..
Later, my friend requested for the wash room, so I followed her. Then, the dog is just chained near the wash room.. The owner then spoke to us : No worries, he won't bite but like pretty girls.."
Haha..then know what I did..?So I when to touch him..actually just trying to..but he became so fierce and wanted to bite me..Oh..so embarrasing..shows what? I am not a pretty girl and he doesn't like me..
So, all my friends laughing at me..Ya..I wish I can 'gali' a hole and jumped in at the moment..
So, my advise do not simply touch any dogs that you do not know..just in case you are not 'his' cup of tea..haha..
So, this time is really..nearly got bitten by a dog..and quite embarrasing too..haha..
I went to Malacca for a trip with my college friends last Thursday and Friday. So, on the Thursday evening, our 'tour guide' brought us to a shop to buy some traditional 'food' back to Kuala Lumpur as requested by my other friends..
So, we arrived at this shop. The owner of the shop has a dog..quite cute..white curly fur, small size.. And he keep on watching us from the fence.. So, I was attracted by 'him'..haha..
Later, my friend requested for the wash room, so I followed her. Then, the dog is just chained near the wash room.. The owner then spoke to us : No worries, he won't bite but like pretty girls.."
Haha..then know what I did..?So I when to touch him..actually just trying to..but he became so fierce and wanted to bite me..Oh..so embarrasing..shows what? I am not a pretty girl and he doesn't like me..
So, all my friends laughing at me..Ya..I wish I can 'gali' a hole and jumped in at the moment..
So, my advise do not simply touch any dogs that you do not know..just in case you are not 'his' cup of tea..haha..
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