Tuesday, May 24, 2005

My First Day of Work

Boring! Is all I could describe for my work. I am working as a part time clerk for an insurance agent in D'sara Intan..

Sigh, the 3 hrs were so long. My boss (the insurance agent) took 3 hrs trying to squeeze all the instructions and information on my job, briefing me for almost 3 hrs.. Nearly to 4p.m., I was so boring till feeling to fall asleep..

My job really a lot to do. Need to photostate, calling to follow up, submiting premium payment for customers, filling up cards, sending letters and filling up forms... And I have no idea whether I could handle it or not. Tons of job waiting for me.... Further on, took back some information to read, to equip myself with insurance.. I really have no idea what really is insurance, except knowing u have to pay to get protection...haha..

After this, I know I am definitely not going to be an INSURANCE AGENT!!!! NO WAY!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Mirror and Doggie

Yesterday, I took down the wall mirror from my room to clean off the dust..

So, as I was walking towards the balkoni of my house, my dog was lying there.. So, I thought to play a trick with her.. Oh.. the mirror was a full length mirror. So, I placed the mirror in front of my doggie.. She was shocked as she felt something standing right in front of her.. She woke up and stand in front of this tall mirror..

She stared at the mirror, making funny expressions... She didn't know it was a reflection of herself in the mirror.. She was tapping her nose, trying to 'smell' who is in the mirror?

hahaa... I was laughing all the way... Then, she found that she can't "smell" the dog.. so she tot the dog was at the back.. She went to the back of the mirror.. Nothing! She again, ran in front of the mirror.. Again, to the back.. Back and flo, many times.. I kept of laughing, watching her funny reactions...

After cleaning, I hang back the mirror into my room.. My doggie follow me through the whole process... She wonder if I kept another dog in my room.. Wahaha...

Now, my doggie... will always come into my room, go to the mirror, and start wagging her tail to the dog in the mirror..hahahaha...
Puppy 2

I love to see her with this... hehee..

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Stroke

Know what is stroke? I only rougly know that, people who got stroke, won't be able to move certain part of their bodies, for example arms, legs, etc.. these are the minor cases.. If those with serious or mild stroke, they are paralyse.. Paralyse, u noe how serious is it.. Whole life will be spent lying on the bed...

My mum this afternoon came to me, asking :" Which day you don't have class?" Oh, gosh, she sure will grumle if I tell her that next week, most of the days are off due to lecturer posponing the classes as he had to attend meetings. So, I answered :" Next week, I have classes everyday.." What a lie I told. Sorry ya..

I was regret as soon as she told me that her 2 fingers of her right hand were numbed for several days, perhaps nearly a week.. And her arm was weak, felt no strenght to lift it up.. At that moment, I thought that will be 'old people' sickness..Who knows, she said, the neighbour told her it is a sign or sypmtoms of stroke.. Oh no.. I was so shocked and scared... I immediately said :'Choi... No such things!" And I 'commanded' her to see a doctor..
That was her intention too. That's why she asked me which day I would be free.. Now, I 100 times, 1000 times feeling regret for that stupid lie I told...

Later on, I checked the internet looking for information for stroke.. In my heart, there's seem a huge and heavy stone pressuring me.. I was so scared as I read the information.. Ya, the symptoms of stroke involve, numbness on arms, body, legs, etc.., felt weak on body parts, dizzy, always have serious headache without reasons..

Each sentence I carry on, the stone is falling deeper into my heart, putting more worriness.. I am so so sad now.. What can I do? I don't want anything to happen to my mum... She was healthy all the while.. She is not over weight neither having any illness..

God, dear Jesus, please help my mummy. Please heal her. Send away the numbness of her fingers and give strenght again on her arm...

I am very worried now... can't concentrate at all... GOD, please help!!!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Excitement

Oh.. I can feel the excitement of shopping and trying to make myself as pretty as possible!!

Two days ago, my lecturer have spoken to us concerning about the presentation that we are suppose to have in the coming weeks. He wants a very 'professional' presentation, as if you are presenting to sell your idea to potential customers. Since I am in Finance, I suppose is presenting to invite investment..

Wow, he really has lists of requirements for all of us to meet.. Both for guys and girls.. As he was speaking to us, the pages of the lists were one by one flip by him till the end of the page... Wow, we was so so shocked and for all the requirements that he had set for us..

For the guys, they are suppose to have their 3P suit or 2P suit on.. Erm..what's that? is formal dress code, with collar shirt, and kot for 2P suit, while 3P suit, they wear an addtional vest... Somemore, guys should have shoes with heel.. So particular..

Girls worse... More for us to fulfill.. We must have 3 inches high heel shoes, stoking, shirt, kot and also make up.. Must make up nice nice one.. not simple make up. Have you seen those lady with their thick thick make up? That's what he wanted.. Further on, we must have earings too.. Compulsory. Don't have, deduct marks.. Wow.. can't imagine myself in this dress code? Cool.. Corporate lady look.. wahaha...

Went shopping yesterday.. Actually window shopping.. A girl which don't know anything about make up now, got to pick up.. Went to Sasa in pyramid.. Looking at all the cosmetics.. Don't know where to begin. What do I need? Foundation, eyes liner..etc... But which one? What colour is good, which brand better? all these unanswered questions flowing through my mind as I walked around the exhibition racks.. Luckily, the promoter gave me some help, some advice.. Wow, just foundation itself, it can cost me RM70.. wow.. Sadly, my wallet was too 'skinny' on that day.. Got a liquid foundation which costed me RM30.. Think about the others stuffs which I should get... How much it will come up?

Ya.. shop for a kot now. Looking around, all cost up to RM200, minimum..Phew, found a place cheaper... Parkson.. Still ok. I thk should be affordable.. try and try putting on each design of the kots available there.. showing some post in the mirror.. I looked so 'big' in the kot.. the kot is so big for such a short n plum girl..haha..

Didn't bought any.. coz objective was window shopping and survey..

The excitement is already in me!!! Ready to transform myself now to a beautiful butterfly.. I thk many lessons to take.. first lesson is to learn to put on a nice make up.. Need help! Who can help me? Got any tips to make me pretty... Looking forward to..

"Pretty woman, walking down the street... pretty woman..." remember this song? Haha.. Wait to see my pretty face lar..haha.. Hopefully...

Monday, May 09, 2005

What C@n I do ??? GOD, please Help me~

Oh dear.. Seeing my classmate, hearing them saying about the assignment which was just handed up last week, really makes me scared and worried...

Hearing them said handed up 40 over pages, hearing them said handed up nearly a book of appendixes... All these all I don't have lel....

I just done about 30 pages, just put in all the tables and graphs as appendixes.. Others info which I found elsewhere, I din't put it in wor... So how lel?

The more they say, the more I got scared.. Furthermore, I handed up late.. If penalized how??? how???

God.. please help me...!!! Only, you can help me~ I can't face tomorrow already.. What is the lecturer going to say in class tomorrow??? Is he going to announced that he would penalized those who handed up after 12 pm?? Oh.. NO! NO!

God, please help me~ !

Oh.. What can I do???

GOD! The only one whom I can cried out to! Please help me! Promise won't make the same mistake again!!

Day of worries...

H@ppy Mother's D@y~

H@ppy Mother's Day, dear mothers! Mother's Day Teddy

Nearly forgotten this week was the 2nd week of May, thinking next week will only be Mother's Day... haha.. Tiada hati perut... Actually has planned to cook for my mum and inviting my 2 aunts over. However, due to the 'misread' of the weeks, didn't make it.. But, already plan to have a belated Mother's Day celebration next week... Sorry Mum...

Although we didn't have a dinner for mum, but I bought her flowers, Carnations! Tell you secretly, it costed me RM 10.. wow, just for 2 stalks.. hehe.. But buying it for mum, worth the spending.. I thk my mum has spent more than this amount on us...

When we gave her the flowers, she was so so so HAPPY! Ya, all mothers sure are happy to receive something from their children.. Wishing her a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY as she received the flowers from my hand.. She was asking how much it cost, coz she knows was expensive.. But, I laughed and said 'Secret!' hehe.. no review!

Mummy, I know I have been 'rebellious' in your eyes over the years, but I just wanted to live my style of my life... I just need your understanding! Thanks, for supporting me all the way for doing things in the way I want.. I just want to say 'Thank you, Mummy!'

And lots of love for you!
Beating Heart





Sunday, May 08, 2005

Heartily Senses

Life is a difficult journey....

Life is full of obstacles....

But, U can try this out:


Listen with your heart instead of hearing with your ears,
See with your heart instead of seeing with your eyes,
Speak from your heart instead of speaking from your mouth,
Feel with your heart, definitely with your heart!!!


Don't believe?

It's true.

With your heart, you may see, hear, speak the most beautiful things..
The ugliest things will become beautiful if you do everything with your heart...

Have you ever heard that 'heartless' people lead a happy life??

Life is tough. No doubt. Agree.

But, I don't find it difficult to carry on. As I can see there is a COLOURFUL journey ahead of me...

Maybe, I am a person like to imagine.. Like maginations a lot.. When I am free, I'll imagine.. Some people call it day dreaming.. But I just like it..

Well, having 'heartily senses' makes me a happy person. As I became someone reasonable, someone that is caring and concern for other people.

Why not, you try it out?
You'll find the colours of your life!

Saturday, May 07, 2005

别人的天长地久

别人的天长地久

一闪而过回声轰隆
电光石火摩擦心痛
一瞬间加速度坠落在寂寞公路
哪里找我的梦被偷的梦
偷偷的逃走不见了
一无所有了一辈子晃晃悠悠
你说的一天不够不够你爱我
不够长不够久
你要的为爱而活
怎么忘了我
好羡慕你能拥有别人的天长地久

一笑而过爱恨酸楚回忆的毒
开满罂粟飙着泪的光速一个人栽进孤独
摇曳点一盏灯点亮萤火远远的
飞走了熄灭了蠢蠢欲动
在风中留一个梦
你说的一天不够不够你爱我
不够长不够久
你要的为爱而活
怎么忘了我
好羡慕你能拥有别人的天长地久

歌手:梁静茹

专辑:燕尾蝶 下定爱的决心

Listening to this song, sadness flows through me...

Weepy







Learnt My Lesson...

Today was a terrible, terrible day...

Assignment due date and was rushing for the whole night till this morning... And the stupid printer was not cooperating with me.. Finished the assignment in time, but didn't hand up on time...

Suppose to got it hand up by 12 pm, know what? I was late for 30 minutes, trying to catch a cab to the college. My heart nearly dropped out as I walked on the street, no cab was found! What a wonder in life, no cab when I need one? The street was so quite... Hey, this nearly 12 noon, and the road was so empty? What happen? Lost, lost in the sense don't know what happened....

The whole situation was so weird, it made me so scared.. Furthermore, 12 noon, the weather was cloudy as if was just morning.. Everything just out of my control...

Manage to get a cab, but was 12.15 noon... I was so worried, nearly cried out.. Don't know what will happen..

The cab driver as if he knew my 'worrysome', drove extremely fast..I think nearly 100km/h on the highway... Phew, reached in 15 minutes, but still late.

Handed up to the office. The girl just asked me to put on her table... I saw through the glass wall of my lecturer's room, he was not there. But could see 2 stacks of assignments piling up on his table... Will the girl tell the lecturer I was late? My classmate came in too at that time. I went off as he stepped into the office. Later, he caught up with me... Asking me will the lecturer penalized him? I say I don't know.. I wish no, because I was late too... And, he told me that he overheard the girl mentioning the time.. Oh! Is she really putting down the time I handed up the assignment? Am I going to be penalized and have my 20 % gone????????? Worried...

Sms a friend, telling him all my worries... I was so tired as I couldn't even thk what was I typing... Just know, this time, I've learnt my lesson... Should have got it print earlier.... This time, I want to scold myself : Stupid and Stupid!!!

Sigh.. I think today I not just brought myself to worries and trouble, I did disturbed my friend. Coz I called her and asked she could give me a lift to college.. I didn't know I did that.. How could I did that? I think was my desparateness and nervousness did that... But, just want to apologized for giving her a 'shocked' call...haha..

Indeed, a terrible day.. I know, my friends and sister told me:" Don't worry, the lecturer would be kind." But it still didn't stop me from worrying... Coz I know this time is my fault!

Sigh.....................

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

~ Wonderful 21st Birthd@y ~

Huh, long time have not written on this blog... So now, want to put down my beautiful and very 21st birthday.. Although it has past and has been long time ago, the memories were still fresh in my mind, as if my birthday was just yesterday...hehe..

What happened that day...

It's a historical event in my life as it marks a wonderful starting of my new life... I was baptized on this day... It was so coincident that Easther Day falls on my birthday.. Wow, so wonderful. So I'll never forget this day...

Besides that, I have lots of surprises for this birthday... Few days before my birthday, my friends, college friends celebrated with me. They brought me to this new cafe opened near my college. We had lunch, simple one. Then, what a surprise, they brought in a cake. Guess what? The cake was not bought from any ordinary shop, neither was bought from Secret recipe. It was baked by my friends.. On top of the cake, it was decorated with cream and smash mallow.. looked interesting as the cream started to melt..hehe.. It was a LEMON cake.. Taste nice. I felt that was a bit too sweet, did not know the sweetness came from my heart or my friend just put too much sugar.. haha...

After the blowing of the candles and birthday songs, they gave me a birthday present.. Surprise again!!! Never thought of receiving this present from them. They bought me make up accessories: a blush and eye shadows.. Wow, the eye shodows have many colours, bright colours to dark colours, really like rainbow!!! haha.. Know what, one of the friend took out the eyeshadow and chose a blue one, and started 'colouring' it on my eyes.. So embarrased... making up in the cafe!!! hahahaha...

On the day of my birthday, my family and I went out for dinner for celebration. Of course, must do that coz I am the Queen of the day... We went steamboat. I was so touched. I was so touched not because of the environment neither because I am the Queen of the day. But, was touched because my whole family were all together for this dinner. Especially, my dad.. Those who know me will understand how I feel. It was wonderful... Although the shop was packed and we have to sit outside without airconds. I was so happy and warmth for the gathering..

Later at night, my friend from Australia gave me a call. We chatted for such a long time. I was so extremely happy to get her call.. We chat for hours with interesting topics...

Ah~ A wonderful day.. !!!

I was very touched and happy. I was so happy as all my family are together. And my dad was there in the church to witness my baptism as he is not a Christian. I have thought that he may not come and even celebrate my birthday.. But, it did not happened as I thought. It was so wonderful.. My heart is rejoicing the whole day..
I hope that this will be the first step to build a good father-daughter relationship in the future!