I miss the feeling of yesterday

I miss the feeling of yesterday..

the feeling of enjoying da dinner with him.. nvr felt so no boundaries, I hv put down worrying his perception on me.. haha.. so free n relax

Happy happy to get his pressie, as was not expected.. (felt bad that had misund him for not remembering me)

Enjoyed the ride he sent me home.. Not sure how he felt.. coz he seems cool... or is the normal act he used to hv sending gals home.. he had sent so many of them.. hahaha
but i do miss the feeling of talking, laughing, "beating" him in the car.. miss the sudden brake, and we moving forward.. haha, me thinking my hands could stop him.. haha..
missed talking with him in the car.. wish it could be more... like to sit in his car, felt very secured when he drives.. love to sit next to him...

I miss the feeling of yesterday... Yesterday once more.... pls..

I miss him.. miss..

Lord, TQ! it must hv been u.. Thanks for the favour

22/03/2010 diary

Lately why he seems so cold to me?
He don't ask abt me, even my msn msg seems down.
My fb no longer has his comment yet I cud c his comment all over at other ppl'sm
Really that I nvr even cross his mind?
Or I had really mean nothg at all already?

Wat happen?
Isn't it I have told myself forget it?
Why I still feeling so down?

Lord, pls help me.
I even hv a sudden dun wanna hv dinner wit him anymore.
But I also at the same time wish to c him..
I even hope I don b too cool also. Hahahaha
If really not meant to be, I dreamt abt him holding me.
Also dreamt him denying me. :(
Sad. I juz felt confused n miserable.
Perhaps all also my fault for letting my heart fallen for him..

Dear Lord, pls help me. Can I hv a wonderful day wit him?

Want you to be there alwayz

Last thurs (11/03), met him @ gym.. suddenly he was mentioning somethg not my bos already...
I so worried, but continue my gym w/o further asking..

Next day, i text him and ask.... he juz gave a simple reply.. can't say. no worry
I texted him back :

"Haha okok, shall no worry for my bos, coz he is big, smart n bravo. haha.. Shall wait for da time of reveal.. Juz abit :( .. no worry... ganbatte!"

----no reply frm him----

But today, a sudden he IM me, welcoming me back frm work...
the mentioning tat he assured me he is not goin off unless they dont want him... then ended with the new bos may not want him.. juz info.. haha...

I felt so so sad reading the IM... I dont wish not to see him anymore.. I really want the best thg tat can goes for him..

I replied his IM : " oki oki, i'll keep to myself.. but why he/ she don want u wor... mayb i don know how tis politics is played.. hmmm, i'll make da wish for u on my day.. :) "

----no reply frm him----

really wish he could catch my heart... but my main concern is still he to be there, successful, happy, joyful!

:'(