2012 first blog post

Wow, it's such long time since I hv posted in the blog.

Many things and events took place in the past months of 2011 and 2012. Now is already mid of June for 2012, in fact Mid Year of 2012!!

Being in ups and downs... miserably live through the year, being busy and busy... nevertheless survived through 2011.

Grew old in 2012, March 27, gaining 28th this year. Tears shed terribly on the day, a day which totally hurt and could not have more hurt than that.

Learnt to face reality is such blunt, and still searching for the one that really treasures me one day.

Learnt to enjoy each moment, live for myself a little bit more. Be more courages, mind other ppl lesser.

Sometimes emotion could get extreme imbalance, learning to let go and take it easy each day. Learnt to care less what people would want to comment about me. Do every best, faith in God.

Whenever thgs are getting tougher, telling myself ahead : God have a better one coming.

Whenever being hurt and stabbed by others, telling myself : God will soon reward a Mr. Nice for me and he shall take care of me.

Set no revolution for 2012, and half-past the year. What can I achieved?
Have being super busy with work, thgs in family. Havent know what I really want...
Still in the lost world, living through each days...

What are my dreams? Well said, live to achieve dreams... But if you don't even know what the dreams, what should we live for??

Sighing, wonder & wonder when could see the light, or I hv blinded folded myself?

Is happiness that far away?

mousie :[

心里真的很难受...

我真的是他的朋友吗?
刚刚一伙儿吃晚餐。他坐在我的车内， 静静的。一声也没出，一句话也没说。去也是，回也是。我们好像是陌生人似的。

是我吗? 那我下回不参与了吧。

他跟别人说要请客两位同事。心中难受极了。因为我问他，要他请客starbucks/ chilis... 却让他说我有点无理取闹。

我真的很不开心。让我撒娇一会儿也行吧?

我从未闹脾气，可是这回我真的很沮丧...

请关心我，好吗?
你明天会去马六甲玩了，还会记得我吗? 还是你找到了新玩伴。我又是什么?

what ws is thinking?

What am I thinking? Is my feeling right? or are they wrong?

I read astrology..

Yesterday (20/09/09), it say:
Sunday, September 20
The groundwork you have been laying in the love department is finally starting to pay off. You must still remain patient, though, and let the situation progress naturally. Try not to rush things.

Today (21/09/09), it say:
Monday, September 21
Patience is not your strong suit right now, but all these mind games are starting to get to you. You may have strong feelings for someone, but that does not mean they can toy with your emotions. Make your feelings known

So? Am to be patience or make the feelings known? I dont know...
Confused...

One of my friend say, I m very obvious already about my feelings... Then what I shall do already?

Today, he was not online. I worry..worry is he dating.. then start all the negative tots..
I kept tell myself, lws, u cant be like tis...U gotta be positive. He aint everythg, k?

sigh... cheer up *^^*