上个星期的一个下午， 大约四点半左右，我想平常一样，来到了Asia Jaya 的 LRT Station, 等巴士回家。
哇！今天天气真热！背着那重重的背包，在巴士站设的张凳坐了下来。背部也被这热烈的太阳晒得炽热热的......好想立即离开这炽热热的地方。可是，巴士却不见踪影......
十五分钟过去了， 巴士还是不见踪影...... 深深的吸了一口气，又慢慢的吐了出来。
望了望手表。哇！五点了！巴士呢？正当我愁闷着，身边突然坐了一个人。我偷偷望了坐在我隔壁的人...... 噢......是一位大男生......
他也望了我一眼，对我笑了一笑。我立即把头转回来，眼睛直望前面。真不好意思，尴尬极了！
我后来也偷偷再多望了他一眼，不禁对他打量大量了一下。哈！
他瞒帅气的.......个子瞒高大......五官端正......看来瞒成熟，应该是22岁以上吧......
后来，他从书包里拿了铅笔盒出来。我被他那特殊的笔盒给吸引著了。既然还有人用这超“原始”的笔盒。心里不禁偷笑了一下。我并非笑他outdate，只不过他这特殊的笔盒让我想起我那小时候的笔盒。
曾经，这种笔盒是最流行的。噢，他这笔盒是铁作成的。还记得吗？这种笔盒是双层的。有上下隔的...... 我依稀记得，这是我小学一年级时用过的。没想到，如今还有人会用！ 他的笔盒，看来是瞒旧的了。它那外层已生锈了，不过隐约还可看到银色没生锈的铁....... 看来，他的笔盒必定陪伴了他好久的岁月......
我偷偷留意着，他小心翼翼的把笔盒打开，只见里面整齐的排了几只笔。他从中取出了其中一支，又小心翼翼的把笔盒盖上。然后，打开了手上的书，开始了他的习题......
我回过了头。心中在想着：哇！现在还有这么的一个男生？
不知要怎样描述他。不过，觉得这位男生很特殊！不禁对他添了几分欣赏......说不定，他可是一位很好的男生噢！
如果，我将来的那一位，也是如此，那该多好！ :p
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Rainbow after the Rain ~Clear Sky~
It's all over! The raining season is over!!!!
Oh, what I meant was the period where I was so depressed was over!!!! I am again the Happy San~
Thank God, is His word to me, which woke me up, and open my eyes to see there are numerous, uncoutable wonderful and beautiful things around me!!!
I can still remember Pastor telling us, "I can do all things through HIS strength! "
Wow! this verse is so powerful, it has given so much strength to overcome all the problems!!! And now, the Happy San is back again!
The rainbow is there too! I always forget that, there will be rainbow after the rain, and the sky will always be clear after the rain... Now, I know nothing is impossible for God, as he has promise us with many blessing, uncountable blessings!!!!
Thank you, GOD!!
Oh, what I meant was the period where I was so depressed was over!!!! I am again the Happy San~
Thank God, is His word to me, which woke me up, and open my eyes to see there are numerous, uncoutable wonderful and beautiful things around me!!!
I can still remember Pastor telling us, "I can do all things through HIS strength! "
Wow! this verse is so powerful, it has given so much strength to overcome all the problems!!! And now, the Happy San is back again!
The rainbow is there too! I always forget that, there will be rainbow after the rain, and the sky will always be clear after the rain... Now, I know nothing is impossible for God, as he has promise us with many blessing, uncountable blessings!!!!
Thank you, GOD!!
Sunday, June 19, 2005
* Attention~
Attention~
I suddenly felt recently I wanted attention so much... I wonder why I feel so.. Or why I acted like that...
Sigh, I wonder how long have I not talked to TSS... Does she know what is happening to me..? Does she know that there was changes in my life? Sometimes I just wanted to talk to her for awhile.. But sadly, she is always a busy person.. If not, throughout the conversation is all about her.. Sigh.. I do feel sad... I do wonder comparing to others friends, I whom she has known for many years, where's my stand when she want to rate all her friends? Sad...
Attention.. Maybe I have long not reviewing my thoughts, therefore I need some attention from someone.. Just anyone..
I don't know why I need the attention...?? Yes, there was awhile where I do have a lot of attention from my fellow juniors in school.. Then, I have long bid good bye to 'attention' when I was in college.. I do enjoy the feel of not notice by anyone.. But, why now I feel I want attention??? is it I felt lonely? Not surrounded with friends anymore...??
I thought I have discovered the most precious meaning in life.. It was to 'serve ' others... I was a very happy person then doing so, lending out my ears and hands whenever someone needs it.. Why suddenly I have forgotten the happiness of doing so?
Why? Don't know... Maybe is time to think...
I suddenly felt recently I wanted attention so much... I wonder why I feel so.. Or why I acted like that...
Sigh, I wonder how long have I not talked to TSS... Does she know what is happening to me..? Does she know that there was changes in my life? Sometimes I just wanted to talk to her for awhile.. But sadly, she is always a busy person.. If not, throughout the conversation is all about her.. Sigh.. I do feel sad... I do wonder comparing to others friends, I whom she has known for many years, where's my stand when she want to rate all her friends? Sad...
Attention.. Maybe I have long not reviewing my thoughts, therefore I need some attention from someone.. Just anyone..
I don't know why I need the attention...?? Yes, there was awhile where I do have a lot of attention from my fellow juniors in school.. Then, I have long bid good bye to 'attention' when I was in college.. I do enjoy the feel of not notice by anyone.. But, why now I feel I want attention??? is it I felt lonely? Not surrounded with friends anymore...??
I thought I have discovered the most precious meaning in life.. It was to 'serve ' others... I was a very happy person then doing so, lending out my ears and hands whenever someone needs it.. Why suddenly I have forgotten the happiness of doing so?
Why? Don't know... Maybe is time to think...
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Disappointment * Excitement * Disappointment * Excitement *...
13th June 2005
*Disappointment*
Result released~ Very scary.. A very disappointed day.. Disappoint with my results.. Myself.. I did BADLY~ Oh no.. I got a C1.. How can it be? It's my fault.. No mood.. Down, down, down... How am I going to face my parents? Further to that, tomorrow is my presentation.. A very scary thing again..
14th June 2005
*Excitement* & *Disappointment*
Excitement : Yeah, did quite OK for the presentation. :) Lecturer didn't 'shoot' tough tough Questions to me.. He only asked me 3 Questions and I managed to answer all! Thank GOD!
Excitement : Yeah~ Shopping mood. To get my top for my Intiball.. So happy~
Excitement : IPP called me! Yipee! Is a Financial Planning Company. They told me I am short listed for interview..haha.. I don't quite wan to join the company.. But, I proved that I am still a person that some company wanted..hehe.. :p
Disappointment : TSS say the one I chosen for my top too 'party' type.. Sigh... She kept on bringing me here and there to search.. I know she is frustrate too.. Me too~ I just wanna keep it simple... End up simply buy a pair of shoes and also the my first choice top... Still got lot to shop.. Bag? Accessories? OUT of BUDGET~ Mood all the way down again~
15th June 2005
*No Excitement Neither Disappointment*
Tired day. Just all I can describe.
16th June 2005
*Excitement*
As time draw nearer, I can already feel the excitement of the approaching of INTIBALL.. Went to search for accesories after my class.. Yes! Manage to find something nice and yet not too pricy.. At this moment.. I count and count, there's still lot more I need to spend... Sigh.. Money again! Anyone to sponsor me ??? :p
*Excitement* : Very nice to have it
*Disappointment* : Nothing I can do about it.. Sigh.. Ganbade! Wai San~
*Disappointment*
Result released~ Very scary.. A very disappointed day.. Disappoint with my results.. Myself.. I did BADLY~ Oh no.. I got a C1.. How can it be? It's my fault.. No mood.. Down, down, down... How am I going to face my parents? Further to that, tomorrow is my presentation.. A very scary thing again..
14th June 2005
*Excitement* & *Disappointment*
Excitement : Yeah, did quite OK for the presentation. :) Lecturer didn't 'shoot' tough tough Questions to me.. He only asked me 3 Questions and I managed to answer all! Thank GOD!
Excitement : Yeah~ Shopping mood. To get my top for my Intiball.. So happy~
Excitement : IPP called me! Yipee! Is a Financial Planning Company. They told me I am short listed for interview..haha.. I don't quite wan to join the company.. But, I proved that I am still a person that some company wanted..hehe.. :p
Disappointment : TSS say the one I chosen for my top too 'party' type.. Sigh... She kept on bringing me here and there to search.. I know she is frustrate too.. Me too~ I just wanna keep it simple... End up simply buy a pair of shoes and also the my first choice top... Still got lot to shop.. Bag? Accessories? OUT of BUDGET~ Mood all the way down again~
15th June 2005
*No Excitement Neither Disappointment*
Tired day. Just all I can describe.
16th June 2005
*Excitement*
As time draw nearer, I can already feel the excitement of the approaching of INTIBALL.. Went to search for accesories after my class.. Yes! Manage to find something nice and yet not too pricy.. At this moment.. I count and count, there's still lot more I need to spend... Sigh.. Money again! Anyone to sponsor me ??? :p
*Excitement* : Very nice to have it
*Disappointment* : Nothing I can do about it.. Sigh.. Ganbade! Wai San~
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
I Hate to be Like THIS!!!!!!~
I hate to be like this!~ I hate to be like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why I have to be so good to everyone but none even appreciate?????
I am so hurt but I always just keep it to myself.. Pretending I am fine in front of all these people... Why don't they just open their eyes, open wide enough to see into my heart which is bleeding..
I want to open my mouth and yell, scream and shout at these people! But, at the end I didn't do it! Why didn't I do it? I should have done that!
Friends? Expectation from friends.. Sometimes I just need a little time from her. While I am ready to be at her side anytime, anywhere, why not her? I am tired of taking care of each of their interest and welfare! Why not they try do something for me! I do have expectation, you know? .. End up? Dissappointment...
Family? Trying to be a good sister and a good daugther. Never even say a little of my sadness of difficulties I face all days to them.. Trying to fulfill all requirements to be a good daugther! I need a break! Please~ Why not the parents try to put themselves in their children's shoes and think for them?
Suddenly, I realise myself sailing in the sea, just myself.. No one. No one to reach out... No one..
Why I have to be so good to everyone but none even appreciate?????
I am so hurt but I always just keep it to myself.. Pretending I am fine in front of all these people... Why don't they just open their eyes, open wide enough to see into my heart which is bleeding..
I want to open my mouth and yell, scream and shout at these people! But, at the end I didn't do it! Why didn't I do it? I should have done that!
Friends? Expectation from friends.. Sometimes I just need a little time from her. While I am ready to be at her side anytime, anywhere, why not her? I am tired of taking care of each of their interest and welfare! Why not they try do something for me! I do have expectation, you know? .. End up? Dissappointment...
Family? Trying to be a good sister and a good daugther. Never even say a little of my sadness of difficulties I face all days to them.. Trying to fulfill all requirements to be a good daugther! I need a break! Please~ Why not the parents try to put themselves in their children's shoes and think for them?
Suddenly, I realise myself sailing in the sea, just myself.. No one. No one to reach out... No one..
Friday, June 03, 2005
Enjoy Being Busy *
Ha! I am enjoying my life now.. So busy, so busy!
This is my last semester.. And I have many to do just for these 4 months before I really graduate! Crazy lel? In final semester, everyone concentrating on studies, while I still go work part time! I am not in need of money, just for experience!
But, I do enjoy. So busy, that I hardly got times to think nonsence.. Life is always on going.. non stop..
Happy is what I chase for. Of course ethical too!
Be happy, No worries!!! hehe..
This is my last semester.. And I have many to do just for these 4 months before I really graduate! Crazy lel? In final semester, everyone concentrating on studies, while I still go work part time! I am not in need of money, just for experience!
But, I do enjoy. So busy, that I hardly got times to think nonsence.. Life is always on going.. non stop..
Happy is what I chase for. Of course ethical too!
Be happy, No worries!!! hehe..
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