Gonna fly to HK at 4pm today...
Yesterday at work, I IM him to tell him indirectly i m gonna be away for few days.
He didnt ask where m i going, just say on leave ka...
I wish he could ask more :( I will really miss him...
Wish that can always have him by myside. :)
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Hold your hand...
I dreamt, a few times, holding a firm n warmt hand of a guy.. I hardly can see the person's face...
But I know is him... He always appeared in my dreams...
If we weren't meant together, why I always dream of you? especially to hold my hand...
Is it because there was once I fell, I grabbed your hand so tight till today I can't forget the warmt of your hand...
I read a dream analysis report, it say, if you dreamt of holding someone's hand, good luck will come...
Is it true? when my luck of holding your hand will come again... ?
But I know is him... He always appeared in my dreams...
If we weren't meant together, why I always dream of you? especially to hold my hand...
Is it because there was once I fell, I grabbed your hand so tight till today I can't forget the warmt of your hand...
I read a dream analysis report, it say, if you dreamt of holding someone's hand, good luck will come...
Is it true? when my luck of holding your hand will come again... ?
Friday, May 27, 2011
Complicated Mood
Today driving morning driving to work, a brand new hyundai sonata was right in front me, driving relatively slow....
Carplate was WVH 896... i was looking at the plate, wow, cars are being released so fast!! so fast it is WVH.... then i onli realised 896 is his ex car plate.... I can't see who is the driver, bt the driver drove till near turn off to KL central... CIMB?? seems to be... she worked there? and she now stay d'sara (all these I heard)... so, will it really she? did she saw me then? coz i was right behind...
hmm.. after i join PC, he seems so cold.. today they went out... i dont know i miss my time at endt...
Feel he will no longer bother about me.. when think about it, tears just rolling in the eyes...
Late last year n early this year, we get closer, chat abit, talk became easier.... I tot the gap of us will close and distance can get abit nearer....
When things just tot will be better... I need to leave him...
Now the Gap/ distance started to grow.. I so miss him, and no longer we chat... no longer we dinner...
Rolling tears, sobbing heart... my close friend is leaving, tis journey is gonna be more difficult to walk on...
:(
Carplate was WVH 896... i was looking at the plate, wow, cars are being released so fast!! so fast it is WVH.... then i onli realised 896 is his ex car plate.... I can't see who is the driver, bt the driver drove till near turn off to KL central... CIMB?? seems to be... she worked there? and she now stay d'sara (all these I heard)... so, will it really she? did she saw me then? coz i was right behind...
hmm.. after i join PC, he seems so cold.. today they went out... i dont know i miss my time at endt...
Feel he will no longer bother about me.. when think about it, tears just rolling in the eyes...
Late last year n early this year, we get closer, chat abit, talk became easier.... I tot the gap of us will close and distance can get abit nearer....
When things just tot will be better... I need to leave him...
Now the Gap/ distance started to grow.. I so miss him, and no longer we chat... no longer we dinner...
Rolling tears, sobbing heart... my close friend is leaving, tis journey is gonna be more difficult to walk on...
:(
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Where is he? Kept thinking about him, why?
Is it true that he already seeing someone?
I keep thinking, isn't there's no fate between us?
That's why, it's so near/ close, yet seems so far away....
I really just wanna keep very very quiet until he don't see me around...
Just wanna shrink to very very tiny until is unnoticeable....
Is it true that he already seeing someone?
I keep thinking, isn't there's no fate between us?
That's why, it's so near/ close, yet seems so far away....
I really just wanna keep very very quiet until he don't see me around...
Just wanna shrink to very very tiny until is unnoticeable....
Thursday, May 19, 2011
想着你...
你现在想着谁有 没有和我相同的感觉...
He always appear in my mind... I wonder if one day will get crazy thinking of him?
He always appear in my mind... I wonder if one day will get crazy thinking of him?
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
18.05.2011
Today he is MC/ EL?
I also not feeling well, diarhea and feel cold & weak... He did not online or on FB...
Is he very sick? Or what had happened?
Thinking, if one day, he finally found his d other one, how am I going to move on?
Is he already have someone?
Heart feeling very down.. How much I wish he is around...
To see his update somewhere is enough to warmt me...
Dear Lord, why? Tell me how to go on?
I also not feeling well, diarhea and feel cold & weak... He did not online or on FB...
Is he very sick? Or what had happened?
Thinking, if one day, he finally found his d other one, how am I going to move on?
Is he already have someone?
Heart feeling very down.. How much I wish he is around...
To see his update somewhere is enough to warmt me...
Dear Lord, why? Tell me how to go on?
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Diary : 13.05.2011
Had dinner with ex-colleague. She said she heard he got girl friend already..
I don't know I replied..
Heart feel very down... Yeah, he is going back very early...
Today, didnt talk to him at all.. Just seen him only..
Heart feel very down, wanna feel at the side of him. When with him, i can feel safe, secured...
Like I no need to worry...
Just because I like him, I guess....
Where is he? Facebook don't see him too :'(
I don't know I replied..
Heart feel very down... Yeah, he is going back very early...
Today, didnt talk to him at all.. Just seen him only..
Heart feel very down, wanna feel at the side of him. When with him, i can feel safe, secured...
Like I no need to worry...
Just because I like him, I guess....
Where is he? Facebook don't see him too :'(
Sunday, May 01, 2011
Gave Him a call
After the incident, it keep circling in my mind...
So i gave him a call, tot trying my luck, if he does pick up, then i will say. The dial tone keep rang, but no one answer, then the operator put on saying the receipient is not answering at the moment.
So i tot just give up. Awhile later he called back. I told him got somethg wanna talk.. then he say ok la next tues la.. so bad. I stopped him say i wanna complaint abt my bos...
He just laugh and laugh and finally told me to forget abt her... then i said i wanna take back my decision can? he pretended not hearing it, say happy holiday, have a nice rest n good bye.
I reluctantly say bye.
And the conversation Hanged!
So i gave him a call, tot trying my luck, if he does pick up, then i will say. The dial tone keep rang, but no one answer, then the operator put on saying the receipient is not answering at the moment.
So i tot just give up. Awhile later he called back. I told him got somethg wanna talk.. then he say ok la next tues la.. so bad. I stopped him say i wanna complaint abt my bos...
He just laugh and laugh and finally told me to forget abt her... then i said i wanna take back my decision can? he pretended not hearing it, say happy holiday, have a nice rest n good bye.
I reluctantly say bye.
And the conversation Hanged!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Twisted Truth
This new bos of mine is terrible!!
She can twist truth. how to work with this kind of person, is so scary..
Things she wanted to do, she blame it on me, say I was the one wanted to go for roadshow!
Hello, she is the one wanted to go north & south! And she put the pointer to me when was questionned about budget.. And used my words to tell it to the big bos, as if she was the one had rationale with me!
Damn angry & disappointed!
She can twist truth. how to work with this kind of person, is so scary..
Things she wanted to do, she blame it on me, say I was the one wanted to go for roadshow!
Hello, she is the one wanted to go north & south! And she put the pointer to me when was questionned about budget.. And used my words to tell it to the big bos, as if she was the one had rationale with me!
Damn angry & disappointed!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
He says...
Today at Facebook, he updated a status : " Friends are like shoes. Some loose some tight. Some fit just right & they help us as we walk through life. "
hmmm.. am I the one that play an important role? Or will I just be a passer by...?
I wish he is still my bos. But I even wish we are closer friends...
But I can't feel he is ...
:(
hmmm.. am I the one that play an important role? Or will I just be a passer by...?
I wish he is still my bos. But I even wish we are closer friends...
But I can't feel he is ...
:(
Friday, April 22, 2011
He fell sick...
He fell sick d...
I was very busy... hardly see him these days.. felt I've not spoke to him since ages....
I m feeling very down, miss him though..
today met him @ lift during lunch hr.. I m always in a messed up situation.. I was suppose to get out at Ground floor but when lift stops at U1...i just got out without realising... Don't know what is running in my mind...
Saw him very moody, not just expression though.. Thought of speaking to him after back frm meeting. Rush n rush, when reach carpark, saw his car gone, slights of disappointment swipe through my heart...
Apparently, he fell sick already.. went home early... I after work about 8pm, dropped him a sms just asking him to take care n take a good rest.. Didnt expect him to reply though thinking he might be sleeping... but how much the heart wanted he does reply.. he did but was so simple : "ok will do"... my heart also felt down as I don't hv much response frm him...
Seeing him actively @ facebook, then he shd be fine.
Dreamt him few days back.. LOL... the dream, can't remember did I kissed him? or he did? hahaha...
I think I'm crazy thinking of him.. I just wanna be as cold as possible.. As I also facing alot problem in my work.. I do feel so down, I just want to keep quiet... very quiet...
Felt telling the new bos of mine, pls leave me alone & let me quietly do my work... I m feeling very stress....
I am just feeling so down.. I do wish he can speak to me though...
Sob sob...
I was very busy... hardly see him these days.. felt I've not spoke to him since ages....
I m feeling very down, miss him though..
today met him @ lift during lunch hr.. I m always in a messed up situation.. I was suppose to get out at Ground floor but when lift stops at U1...i just got out without realising... Don't know what is running in my mind...
Saw him very moody, not just expression though.. Thought of speaking to him after back frm meeting. Rush n rush, when reach carpark, saw his car gone, slights of disappointment swipe through my heart...
Apparently, he fell sick already.. went home early... I after work about 8pm, dropped him a sms just asking him to take care n take a good rest.. Didnt expect him to reply though thinking he might be sleeping... but how much the heart wanted he does reply.. he did but was so simple : "ok will do"... my heart also felt down as I don't hv much response frm him...
Seeing him actively @ facebook, then he shd be fine.
Dreamt him few days back.. LOL... the dream, can't remember did I kissed him? or he did? hahaha...
I think I'm crazy thinking of him.. I just wanna be as cold as possible.. As I also facing alot problem in my work.. I do feel so down, I just want to keep quiet... very quiet...
Felt telling the new bos of mine, pls leave me alone & let me quietly do my work... I m feeling very stress....
I am just feeling so down.. I do wish he can speak to me though...
Sob sob...
Saturday, April 09, 2011
Very sad
Hey there... I feel very sad... he is busy.. no time for me.. on the other hand, I am very stress and can't fit into the new place... feel sophiscated. I really miss him as a good boss.. I wish I could tell him more talk to him more... heart is really sorrow.... i wish to cry again yesterday cried sadly... today i feel like crying again :( I saw his FB a gal ajak him movie somemore... wah, looks like he is so so popular.. everyone just wanna go out wit him... I feel so sad.. Now we get closer, I jst so worry it will just gone d... I like to quietly stay around his side... but now is so far from him d... :( dEAR Lord..... I really miss him alot... I thk I really like him alot.. how ?
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Misses him so alot
Transferred to the new dept for 3 weeks already... misses him alot... heart still feel the sorrows... but had to hide it... scared the relationship which was getting better will lost becoz this transfer :( So sad....
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Transferred
With effect 1st march, I have transferred to antoher dept upon being requested. He've asked me several times, I've to say yes for the benefits of the bigger picture.
After being transferred, I felt I can't accept the fact, he is no longer my bos. We will not be as close as before.
Last sat, 12th march, we worked on a slides which he need to present to higher management. Enjoyed the working with him, getting his teasing, and me also "manja" abit to him. Never felt so closed in work.
How long more I could sustain without him being my bos, close supervisor, mentor and friend.
Very miss him but I can't show it. :(
Wish him well.!
After being transferred, I felt I can't accept the fact, he is no longer my bos. We will not be as close as before.
Last sat, 12th march, we worked on a slides which he need to present to higher management. Enjoyed the working with him, getting his teasing, and me also "manja" abit to him. Never felt so closed in work.
How long more I could sustain without him being my bos, close supervisor, mentor and friend.
Very miss him but I can't show it. :(
Wish him well.!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
这是爱吗? 你...我是傻瓜
为什么?
为什么当我正要开心过来，事情往往突有改变?
正在听着<我的野蛮王妃>的两首主题曲。
想起了他。
这两首歌，是我清楚记得，那时他有了新女朋友时的。
现在，我放下了许多。
不 过，我还是依然对他有感觉。
今 天是情人节。可是我们却没有表示。
他是否有喜欢我吗?
还是自己想多了?
不知道...
沉溺在歌曲中...
<这是爱吗?>
<你...我是傻瓜>
为什么当我正要开心过来，事情往往突有改变?
正在听着<我的野蛮王妃>的两首主题曲。
想起了他。
这两首歌，是我清楚记得，那时他有了新女朋友时的。
现在，我放下了许多。
不 过，我还是依然对他有感觉。
今 天是情人节。可是我们却没有表示。
他是否有喜欢我吗?
还是自己想多了?
不知道...
沉溺在歌曲中...
<这是爱吗?>
<你...我是傻瓜>
Friday, February 11, 2011
Like the feel with him
Today have a dinner date with him & ex-colleague cum fren.
Is a gathering dinner we used to have n this time to celebrate my fren birthday.
Was thinking long enuff to offer that I should drive him there instead of we drive individually.
Took up the courage told him, it's a new car, let me fetch him. Surprisingly, he agreed! Happy ^^
On the way there, he "inspect" my new car, analysing the new interior of vios.
Happy to be next to him, not talking about work. I felt the wall between us seems not there, like this natural feel, be next to him is so natural, so comfort, so secured, so nice!
Had dinner. Had chat. Found out his current status. He said he is now tie to work, not thinking others (serious? sad.... means he doesn't want a relationship)
Talk about his house. Admire him talking, me listening closely. In between jokes n some teasing. Nice!
After dinner, fetching him back to office. He sighing he is getting poorer as many thgs need $$. I consoled him said, hey bos, it's new year! Let's say : Bos u're very rich! haha..
Then he further inspect my car... talking about some technical stuff gals nvr notice. Great hearing him explained.
Finally reach office. Wish time passed by a little slower, wished that the journey was a bit longer...
Dropped him off at lobby, saying thanks to him. He wishing me safe journey home & have a nice weekend.
The day ended with my sms to him : TQ for the meal :) U too have a nice weekend!
Usual he never replied.
Like the feel be with him. Like it when we not talking about work.
Like that the wall seems broken... Like the feel that it's so natural!
Thanks to God!
Is a gathering dinner we used to have n this time to celebrate my fren birthday.
Was thinking long enuff to offer that I should drive him there instead of we drive individually.
Took up the courage told him, it's a new car, let me fetch him. Surprisingly, he agreed! Happy ^^
On the way there, he "inspect" my new car, analysing the new interior of vios.
Happy to be next to him, not talking about work. I felt the wall between us seems not there, like this natural feel, be next to him is so natural, so comfort, so secured, so nice!
Had dinner. Had chat. Found out his current status. He said he is now tie to work, not thinking others (serious? sad.... means he doesn't want a relationship)
Talk about his house. Admire him talking, me listening closely. In between jokes n some teasing. Nice!
After dinner, fetching him back to office. He sighing he is getting poorer as many thgs need $$. I consoled him said, hey bos, it's new year! Let's say : Bos u're very rich! haha..
Then he further inspect my car... talking about some technical stuff gals nvr notice. Great hearing him explained.
Finally reach office. Wish time passed by a little slower, wished that the journey was a bit longer...
Dropped him off at lobby, saying thanks to him. He wishing me safe journey home & have a nice weekend.
The day ended with my sms to him : TQ for the meal :) U too have a nice weekend!
Usual he never replied.
Like the feel be with him. Like it when we not talking about work.
Like that the wall seems broken... Like the feel that it's so natural!
Thanks to God!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
受宠若惊
I am caught in shock...
yesterday was fetching a guy colleague home.. I just told him i not feeling well so leaving soon. he wanted to take a ride.
Once i come out from the wash room, he was standing at the lift. Spoke to me:
"are you ok?"
then took his hand jz put on my forehead.
"no fever ah..."
i was caught in deep surprise and shock, paused for a moment to response.
"err.. nothg la, jz feeling dizzy"
Lift arrived and we walked in.
"I've history of Low Blood Pressure, so easy feel dizzy.."
I really don know wat to say. Hope I did not thk too much. Just a surprise.
I thk I hope the most is another person who will do this to me, concern n care for me.
But, he will not.
Text him, but he no reply.
Hate that he don't reply.
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