Happy Birthday To HIM....

Today, 3rd Aug, is his Birthday....

Celebrated with karaoke with him, bought him cake...
How come he seems a bit down?

I wish to see him HAPPY..
Although his not mine, and I felt sad over alot of things he does to me, BUT, I still wish he would be happy & fine...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

What can I do?

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting,
No more aching
No more fighting,
No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

What can I really do?
All will do just hide up my feelings.. and hide myself..

Another day in July.. The horoscope says... is it true?

Friendster Horoscope for July 9, 2008

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)[?]

The Bottom Line
This is a wonderful day to get some stuff started! Stop stalling and start doing!

In Detail
This is a wonderful day to get stuff started! If you've been delaying making travel plans, calling up that cutie, or getting you car fixed, it's time to stop stalling and do what you need to do. You've been thinking and pondering long enough. Now it's time to act. You can be confident that whatever is begun today will end in a huge success. As for your concerns that you're not quite ready: Well, you're never going to be completely prepared. But you can make things up as you go along!

The horoscope say for today...

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)[?]

The Bottom Line
You have been putting the needs of other people ahead of your own for far too long.

In Detail
As selfish as it might sound, you need to put yourself first, today. You have been putting the needs of other people ahead of your own priorities for far too long, and it's high time for you to get yourself back at the top of your list. You have accumulated far more karma points than you could ever use, so why keep racking them up? Take a break today. Do something nice for yourself, because you are your favorite person. You don't have to earn this attention.

But I wish I could do more for him..
Is that love?
Does he feel the same?

I'm Yours

I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks
and now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
Nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some
I won’t hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I’m yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
A lá peaceful melody

It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i’ma saying is there ain’t no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It’s what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love

No please, don’t complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

(Artist: Jason Mraz)


*San: Can it be? Will it be possible?*

Crushing

*Crushing*

Took a quick quiz juz now.

Results:
You have a crush on someone! Crushing is a bit different than love, but it feels like almost the same thing. You think of that special person constantly, and your heart is full of hope and anticipation. Good luck to you!

Wanna laugh... Where's my luck then??
This really making me cry..tears...

Waiting All My Life

Everybody needs it, everybody wants it
Everybody's searching for someone
Been down a thousand highways
Baby, I've been

Waiting all my life to find you
Alwayz been one step behind you
Your love babe, I've been waiting all my life

I was tired of waiting, every night was praying
Everyday would be the day I'd find you
I grew so impatient, how long would it take
To know you were out there somewhere?
Somewhere waiting, wondering just like me

I've been waiting all my life to love you
All that time I was dreaming of you
Your love babe, I've been waiting all my life

And did I lose faith, did I lose heart?
Maybe I did, but never lost my way
To where you are, I've been

Waiting all my life to find you
Alwayz been one step behind you
Your love babe, I've been waiting all my life

I've been waiting all my life to love you
All that time I was dreaming of you
Your love babe, I've been waiting
Your love I've been waiting
Your love I've been waiting all my life
All my life, all my life

Artist: Rascal Flatts

I m nobody to him

Really nobody to him...

Don't seems he appreciate my gift...

SIGH.........

我问他， 明天是否有兴趣看电影去。他却敷衍的回答我，明天才决定。。

下班时， 他还大大声说: 他去拍拖了。。。

原来，在他心中， 我未占一点位置。我不如他身边那些只是在他面前嘻哈的女孩。


我又不是他的什么人。何来占任何位置呢?

Nobody, nobody to him.... :(

想他

想他。

连度假，也在想他。

想他啊~

唉。。。。

很无奈的呀!

该怎么办?

真的真的很喜欢他。
怎么办?

假装若无其事。
对他不闻不问。
心中很难受。

看着他离开，回家， 会傻的去查看IM。
他的女朋友也一块下班吗?
想着他们会去约会，心中不禁低落，可是却要提醒自己这是事实。
为何要如此折磨自己?

刻意让自己在工作里很忙很忙。
没有多余时间去观察他。
心中是真的很难受的。

我真的不知该怎么办了。。。
只能偷偷流泪。
我真的是傻瓜!

好想永远握住他的手

昨天晚上， 看完电影， 步行回到公司。
正当走着下楼下的停车场， 我摔倒了。

他伸出援手， 想要把我扶起。
我摔得很疼。只能坐在石阶上。
我紧紧握住他的手。牢牢的握住。咬着唇，忍着那剧痛。

我握住他的手，紧紧的抓住。
但愿， 我真的能永远都握住他的手。
虽然脚很痛， 但我还是忍着。

不知是心中有数， 很快地我还是脱开他的手。
现在想起了，心中的痛比身体受的伤， 还要痛。

他知道吗?我好想他， 好想他身边的她是我。
他感觉到吗?
我真的很无助。
我不能说。只能装酷。

我真的舍不得。。。。

期待你的爱

My Life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在里面放
一份爱

Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我
实实在在
不管帅不帅
想要找回来
自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢
大声说出来

期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
你的存在 心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜
你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 越靠近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始
就是放手去爱

曲：林俊杰 词：林怡凤 许环良


也许， 这份感觉只能默默的埋藏在心底。
他都有了新的对象了。

发现原来自己是这么的喜欢着他。
说放开， 不知说了几百几万遍。
可是， 放了又提起来。

那天， 他问我为何为他感到开心。
我楞住了。随意回答了，因为为他感到值得， 他的努力终于被赏识了。
我很努力的掩饰自己的感觉。
不可以让他知道自己的感觉。因为他已是属于别的女孩的了。

我想， 我可以提名"最佳演员"了。
每一回想关心他，却只可以装得若无其事。
偷偷的从他的好朋友，打听他的状况。

就让我静静的一个人吧!

My Wish (for you)

My wish - For you
My wish for the one who only can be kept in my heart..
My wish for myself...

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big,
and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Y eah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big,
and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big


他升职了!
我好高兴， 比自己升职还来得开心。
他终于成为department 里的唯一department head.
知道将来的路， 他会更辛苦。
不过， 很开心因为他终于成功了!
愿望: 希望他一切顺利!

回到过去

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏


你的身影
失去平衡
慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界，想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及

想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

词：刘耕宏 曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可

**可是， 已回不到过去了

Yesterday

Yesterday 很模糊 那时梦很美
有Guitar 会让我想飞
Saturday 听著风 傍晚的海水
沙滩上看落日的我
也许会有人爱我
可惜是我没了梦 我也不太懂

那几年的爱呀 要不要放下 该忘了他吗
爱他的心情 可能最后变成一粒沙

没实现的梦呀 还在风里飘吧
飘成一个谜 也许飘成一滴雨
对吗 我问了好久 回忆它却不说话
Yersterday 是条路 多长的距离
我与你偶尔看回去
Rainy Day 提醒我 可以按暂停
等明天在努力前进
梦见我遗憾快乐 要去哪里
不晓得 某一个世界
那几年的爱呀 要不要放下 该忘了他吗
爱他的心情 可能最后变成一粒沙
没实现的梦呀 还在风里飘吧
飘成一个谜 也许飘成一滴雨
对吗 我问了好久 回忆它却不说话
YES 想看月亮 明天能不能不想他
拍拍相片 回忆是我的藏宝箱
想像未来 幸福很有久没有联络
听见了吗 风在说 别害怕
那几年的爱呀 要不要放下 该忘了他吗
爱他的心情 可能最后变成一粒沙

那几年的爱呀 从前的想法 努力记住他吧
爱他的心情 可能最后变成一粒沙

没实现的梦呀 还在风里飘吧
飘成一个谜 也许飘成一滴雨

对吗 我问了好久 时间在风中说话
当时的爱情 也许终于都过去

对吗 我不再问了 始终在风里的他

Yesterday 蔡淳佳
作词：易家扬

今日心情

心在痛....
难过.

想他。
更难过.....

Someone..

What happen to me ya?
I really don't want to be like tat leh?
Why am I putting my MSN on... waiting for him?

He won't be online already de la..
He now has his new gf.. And his current gf is near him, so he can now date often..
How will he be often online?

Why am I still putting a hope?
I already told myself thousands time - NOT POSSIBLE ANYMORE!
Really hate myself... The truth already is there.. I already accepted it that he found a new girl..
Then why am I still can't forget?

Very torturing...
I have too much free time? Too free to think of him?
Wat can I do???? Wat shud I do?
Someone pls help me!

Long time no c ya, friend!

Oh.. didn't realise I have not blogged for more than 1 year..
Unbelievable...

A blink (hehehe.. translate to chinese)...
Year 2007 just past.. And now already February of 2008..

Wat had happened in year 2007, san?
hmmm.. was a super busy year.. And i couldn't recall a thg..
Means wat? No remarkable thgs I done.???
Maybe there is, but it was not marked down..
Memory is full.. No able to keep it?
No no no.. I thk perhaps I selectively chose not to mark it down..
Year 2007, I lost a lot of thgs.. and also gained..
How to weigh which is more or less? Can't weigh.. coz it is not measurable..
Regrets? Nope.. Just wish I could done better..
But.. Thgs were not within my control.. I slowly became "lone ranger"... became selective social ..
Nah.. It was past tense.. And should look forward..

Resolution for 2008?
It is still blur or should say a bit grey for me.........
But, must to have serious thought of it for me to move on......

Come back once I am done with it! hehehe

Long time no c ya, all friends!!
Wish ya a good year in 2008..

对不起我爱你

没别的， 只想说对不起， 对不起， 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想， 你怎么说，也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说， 很难说，爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要， 一想你， 我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳，想你知道我睡得不好
喝水想着你， 搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间， 出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情， 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你， 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你， 对不起 对不起我爱你

没别的， 只想说对不起，怎么样， 我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲， 你怎么做， 也不会影响我的心情
你知道 有时候男孩更难捉摸， 难捉摸， 爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要， 一想你，我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记得牢，情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你，听歌想着你
大地和蓝天， 出现全都是你

我才不管你的表情， 我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你， 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你， 对不起 对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳， 你看一看我睡得不好
喝水想着你， 搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间， 出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情， 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你， 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你， 对不起 对不起我爱你

唱：梁静茹


**这首歌的歌词，瞒服贴我的心情
可是我却没有那么大的胆量去告诉他
心中已经决定了要放弃，可是这首歌却让我对我的决定有所迟疑
放弃，做得到吗？

New Born Puppies

The last day of Sue Shan with us, she came to my house to see those new born puppies... Tat day, a few of us, went for dinner wit her, a very very final farewell for her.. Decided to fetch her home instead letting her herself taking the LRT and KTM at such late hours.. So, we stopped by my house and have a look at those new born puppies...
They are so small, so fragile.. Tat's the feel we have towards them.. Dear Ling Foong didn't dare to touch them as they are so fragile... Let's have a look at them...

They do look like piglets, rite?? Their eyes and ears are still closed. They juz used their legs to crawl around.. And naturally, they'll stick to each other. Don't know why???




While we having so much fun touching them and holding them.. Ling Foong came out with a briliant idea, "Let's name them all!" "Erm... good idea.."

Guess wat we named them..?? Hahaha.. U'll be surprised! we named them accordance with our IDs.. (I thk we are too in loved with our colleagues already) We identify each of them with our IDs.. There were only 8 of these new puppies, so we managed to address them with 8 IDs of course..

Here we go, we definitely will take the 3 famous ID.. haha.. TAN (Mr. jonhhy), HWC, and YKB.. these 3 guys are the 3 puppies which slept stick to each other (the most rigt ones).. And ELF is the most left one. This is a unique wan.. This puppy has a spade shape black spot on its forehead.. Ling foong found it interesting, so she wanted it to name after her... haha.. And the other second left is me.. I also dunno why.. but its named after me la.. LWS.. hahhaa.. And the one slept next to me, the whitish and abit of brownies wan.. I thk is KYY.. coz she made a lot of noise.. hehe.. juz like KYY very talkative.. hehehe.. :p and the finally the tiny one which is a bit out of the group, if not mistaken, is our Miss Sue Shan, NSS.. the little quiet one, sleeping... hehe.. Eih, only 7 only.. where the 8th???

Finally, the 8th one.. It is name after CWM.. haha.. Miss Rachel.. alone sleeping in the basket.. haha.. Cute leh???

Ya.. managed juz to name after 8 IDs.. All these names are juz for the fun of playing.. No offense to be made to anyone ya!!! After the naming session, we bid goodbye to them and off we went to send Sue Shan home..
I am thinking.. Seeing them named after my fellow colleagues, make me so heavy hearted if I were to give them away especially to places like SPCA.. They are so cute, so innocent.. and yet they can't determine their own lives.. I wish I could do more for them.. Juz like my colleagues too, they are not juz colleagues to me.. Indeed they are more than friends to me.. I do wish I could do more for these bunch of colleagues.. And seeing Sue Shan and Ying Yin leaving, it was so sad.. But, I know they had made the best choice for themselves to move on..

To everyone:
HAPPY HAPPY ALWAYZZ!!!

期待着惊喜。。。

不知，很想时间很快地到明天。。。却又害怕。。。

我很期待着惊喜。。。
我的预感突然失灵了。。。感觉不到明天将发生些什么事。

明天，将和两位同事一块儿吃晚餐。
其实，我期待别人的约会。可是，看来莫些人，却迟迟没有任何的表现。

如果莫些人在，或许我会兴奋的。
是吗？我还不知道。。。

怎样说的？

我的22生日会不会又是另一个这样的生日呢？
莫些人，记得明天是什么日子吗？
如果，象往年般。。 我会伤心死。。。

我已开始心灰意冷了。。。